HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL!
AND
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TAN WAN YING!!!

Hello everyone it's April 1st!! April's fool! And at the same time happy birthday to wanying!
Ok today's Elearning day and I am staying at home doing nothing.

BEST APRIL'S FOOL AWARD SHLD GO TO 304!
Haha something happened yesterday during recess to celebrate April's fool for 304.
Suelynn & Shihan put salt in almost everyone's water bottles! Ok not almost but IS.
Practically everyone's water is either salty or sweet, but mainly SALTY SALTY.
haha super funny when we saw everyone's first reaction when they drank their water.
First they drink, then THEIR FACE TOTALLY CHANGE THEN RAN OUT OF THE CLASSROOM TO FIND A PLACE TO SPLIT OUT THE WATER. hahaha! damn funny i tell you. Physics teacher was pissed haha.

Yesterday was oso inter-class basketball for 304 vs 303.
Obviously 304 won lah! DUH.
haha 50 to 35 i think.
304 ftw!
Somehow i'm beginning to like 304, maybe it's because i noe now tat the fact tat i'm in 304 is a unchangeable fact of my life.
304 FOR THE WIN. :D
I won't regret being in 304 b'cos now i enjoy being in this class.
Ppl are nice and funny. Mainly funny haha.
But i will never forget 205 de, and all my besties friends. :)

Choir's on saturday. But sadly i can't sing. :( Jaslyn not thr too cos she's going to do cip.
SOP 2 jiayous! :D
stop here bah, got lots to do for elearning. -.-
byebye :D

let's make new memories together. this time,i hope it'll last. :)

I do love to have someone doing un-expected nice things which will make me smile for the whole day.

Hello people I'm here again.
Just decided with uncle hans that we may be watching the movie 'How To Train Your Dragon' on fri. Which is Good Friday. I wonder if I can go. Most probably I CAN. :D
I miss C^4. Hillary & Uncle Hans! Azaac too!
Since yesterday I have been listening to songs which I don't even understand a single word of which. But though,the tune is nice ok. Big Bang & Girls Generation FTW!!! :D

<3 Big Bang-----Look only at me, Haru haru, Last Farewell, Let Me Hear Your Voice(recommended by yingying), Lies, Lollipop, My Heaven, With you and We belong together.

<3 Girls Generation----Run Devil Run, Oh!(sharmaine's fav), Gee, Baby Baby
ALL SONGS ARE IN KOREAN. SO I DON'T UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING. haha.
But ALL SONGS ARE NICEEEEEE.

I seldom get jealous. Anyone seen me get jealous over someone or something before? But when ___ mention ____'s name, I get so angry. Wat's wrong with me? This is definitely not jealousy. Or maybe it is. WATEVER. I DON'T CARE DON'T CARE DON'T CARE. not my business.

Uncle hans' calling me to go for the VS concert. Shld I go? 90% going. But I must pull someone to go with me. Who wants to go??? (calling out to all choir fav buddies) 15 bucks for one ticket man. Uncle hans wants flowers tooo. Bouquet somemore. And NJ Concert cost 15 bucks too. OMG I SO GOING TO DIE OUT OF STARVATION MANZ. 30 bucks in total. Someone sponsor me. PLS PLS PLS.

Chatting with sharmaine on msn now. Somehow we keep capping the words. Now our whole convo is in CAPITAL LETTERS. AHAHA.
Sharmaine going play audi with someone n pangseh me. #hint hint hint. it's a guy.

And dumbdumb owes me money now. LOTS OF MONEY MANZ.
BYEBYE :D

CHATTING WITH UNCLE HANS ON MSN RIGHT NOW. :DD
Uncle hans just recommanded a movie to watch.
HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON.


The trailer is super cute n funny!
The dragon split out the fish for the guy to eat. So cute. haha.

We were meant to say goodbye.

Sorry for the previous post. I didn't mean to target anyone. I was just sad. VERY SAD.

I hope you can understand. I miss C^4. I didn't know there was a birthday party for anna. No one told me. I'm just simply sad. Anyway, Happy Birthday to Anna.
I still remember the time when me hillary n uncle hans were at charmaine's house and we chatted around this square table for 3 or 4 long hours. I miss those times. I'm sorry. I hope I'll be there for the next C^4 outing. Thank you.


Ok first, Hello to the world.
Second, maybe I shld not numbering all the points in my post. It looks like an organiser.
Third, maybe I shld just continue to number my points cos it looks neater.
Fourth, i know i'm weird since i am talking to myself.
Fifth, It 's a saturday! (ok everyone knows tat, as a matter of fact.)
Sixth, I think i'm beginning to talk like sharmaine tan hui min. But not as lame as her, duh!
Seventh, I love my horfun.
Eighth, Dennis keep bugging me to go to his church's easter day celebration. Shld I go or not?
Nineth, I'm stuck at home with my sister.
Tenth, I'm angry with someone and I don't feel like talking to that person although i really want to talk to that person.
11th, i dunno how to spell 11th in words.
12th, i have homework. AHH!
13th, i'm bored and there's nothing for me to do. Although there is homework staring in my face for me to do it, but i just don't want to touch it for the moment.
14th, there's nothing much for me to say already so..
BYEBYE :D

*post deleted*

Tears will never fall again. CONTROL. CONTROL. CONTROL!!

Hello everyone out thr. FIRST I WANT TO SAY SORRY TO ALL MY CHOIR BUDDIES. ESPECIALLY SHARMAINE TAN,WEITING,JASLYN,LIMHUI,CHARMAINE LEE,JOANNE FOO, JERELYN, ETC. and thanks to edeline too.

BIG BIG SORRY.

Second I'm going to say THANK YOU TO THE PEOPLE WHOM I SAID SORRY TO.

BIG BIG SORRY & A HUGE THANK YOU.

Third, I AM A USELESS PERSON WHO CANNOT CONTROL HER EMOTIONS.

I PROMISE I'LL BE HAPPY AND MOST IMPORTANTLY,TEARS WILL NEVER FALL AGAIN.

Ok for those people who don't know why am I saying thank you & sorry to my favourite choir peoples, it's ok that u dunno. IGNORANCE IS BLISS, PEOPLE.

I felt so weak then, but thanks to those people, I am better now. Now that I think of it, I AM SUCH A USELESS PERSON TO CRY OVER SUCH SMALL THINGS. Maybe I still can't handle stress yet. But I will learn to handle stress. I WILL. I MUST.

I'm officially broke. $6 left to go through the next 1 weeks or so. Someone sponsor me or something please. I've been very thrifty alr..i haven been going to recess n lunch for 2 weeks le. I'M GOING TO DIE MAN. Starvation. Ur dear jelly/icecream/magic clean (or watever u call me) is going to die liao. SO SAVE HER. MONEY $.$

MID YEARS IS STARTING ON MAY 6!!!

It's only the first week of school for term 1 and they are telling us such stuffs ALREADY.

DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE.

Choir is tiring me out. I can't sing well. I can't hold notes cos I will always go out of tune. Stupid voice of mine -.- Combine concert with hwachong & another sch i forgot the name is in JULY. OH DEAR OH DEAR OH DEAR.

i am tired. jieling is tired. jelly is tired. ice cream is tired. magic clean is tired liao.

byebye :D

You are such an asshole man.

YO PPL. Yes, it's true, some people are just such an asshole.

Sharmaine is going crazy over her ff. LIKE ALWAYS.

AHAHAHA.

Today was supposely 304 vs. 402 in inter class basketball but i didn't go. Hahas too bad.

Hope we can win :)

Oh dear i just did something to my comp which i dunno wat.

nvm,shall continue.

woke up late today. AS USUAL. CHIONG TO SCH. AS USUAL. -.-!

But managed to chat a while with sharmaine,yingying n kina. :D

maths was so so lah, chem was ok but the funny thing that happened is tat terence spray water onto dennis's head and his shirt was wet on one side. (dennis's one sided problem) HAHAHA. INSIDE JOKE.

recess went down with my horfun to eat haha.

then went back class with huihui cos initially we wanted to go back class to sleep but in the end we didn't. Now huihui is like my sleeping buddy or something haha.

physics was a TOTAL BORE. I HATE PHYSICS,

enrichment time went to briefing for the taiwan trip which will be in may. HAHA. SO EXCITED MAN.

CEP lesson was the most fun period cos we kept laughing n laughing at the video abt erm..abstinence frm sex? haha super funny. terence like orgy girls. HAHAHAHAHAHA! GO CHECK OUT THE MEANING OF ORGY N U WILL LAUGH LIKE SHIT.

HAHAHAHA.

Lastly, to present u.. something grace made for me.

i love mama jieling. my virtuous mother :D

hahas.

byebye :D

uarethesecondpersonwhichmademefeelthatwayandtalkingtoyouisabless.nowiamscaredoffallingforyou.

Dun be shocked. Tat IS me & my sis.

first, HELLO TO THE WORLD. :)

second, i can't seem to not leave a line cos blogger is crazy for the moment.

third, OMG I BROUGHT THE BOOK 'THE LOVELY BONES'. i have been eyeing on it for like...A FEW MONTHS??!! So i m currently holding onto my book and never want to let go. Until i finish it.

fourth, today sch reopens! One word to say, SIAN TO THE MAX. But still, i'm quite happy to see my friends and had a good laugh :) ppl around me are SO funny. especially dennis n terence. by the way, today i realised huihui's laugh is similar to hillary's laugh. SO INFLUENCE-ING. OMG I MISS COMBINED CHOIR. :( HILLARY AND UNCLE HANS.

fifth, i just finished my maths homework! :D wait,still got one more question i dunno how to do. -.-

sixth, i was freaking wet today when i got home. just when i reached home, i got a message. it was nice(cos it's like a surprise to receive a message at that point of time),though i was wet and my mood was: f**k the rain @$#!!@$#&%!!!

seventh, 2moro is ms saw's birthday. i think. anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS SAW! :D

eighth, byebye. and with a smily :D

Ilovethispicture!

Stop all the emo-ing. Keep it all inside.

Yes I'll will do it. Stop all the emo-ing. Keep it all inside.
The world would be happier with me being happier. :D
It's fri. ALREADY.
And I still have like 5 homeworks left?!
Geog is the most tiring one. Guess I'm going to stay up the night tonight.
Finished my drama. It was awesome. But the ending sucks man.
AND WEITING,STOP TALKING ABT UR GLEE!!!
But there's the 2nd season to my drama and it's shooting now.
I WANT TO SEE A SHOOTING STAR.
So I'll just have to wait and see. o.O
My march holidays totally suck man. I miss minshi and everyone.
2 more days and school is reopening.
THIS SUCKS. GRR..
Dumbdumb is back from his camp! And he's ignoring me. Like always. But I'm used to it liao. Dunwan talk to him le.
Nothing much to say.
Shall go and do my homework.
-.-
Shall start to end my every post with a smile from now on.
byebye
:DDD

I'm just scared of getting hurt again. Might as well, i'll be alone and watch you from afar.

Hello ppl. Dots i'm super tired today though i did not too tough at all.
Choir today was...MANAGABLE.
Today's top 6 interviews was postponed for me. Only limhui was interviewed. According to limhui, she screwed it up but i believe not.
Learnt the song podong pati today. Mezz sop is the new section and me n limhui are in that section!
It's the easiest part compared to the other 4 parts. Haha. I'm such a slacker.
The song is quite nice (maybe cos my part was easy haha.) but seriously, it's nice.
Waited for limhui's interview to finish and went home with the usual ppl.
Me, limhui n jaslyn always in front (so called the smart ppl)
Weiting, joanne and jerelyn(but she's overseas) and today veronica went home with us. (so called the 'gong3' people)
Haha I LOVE ALL MY CHOIR BUDDIES. THEY ARE THE BEST. <3
Saw the ncc ppl today, i suddenly thought of dumbdumb. Wonder how is he doing in their camp haha.
Saw someone too,wonder if he's well.
It was raining almost the whole day,almost everyday has been raining.
Rain rain go away, come again another day. :)
OK I'M TOTALLY RANDOM.
Holidays will soon be over! It's alr thurs. -.-
But i still haven finish my homework. DIE DIE DIE.
Off to do my homework then.
byebye

Now I no longer believe in happy endings, cos it doesn't even exist in real life.

Great day today. Now i'm tired.
Slept at 3am last night, woke up with DARK CIRCLES O.O
Went for breakfast at macs with mom and got home to prepare for choir.
Choir was good today,had PT first.
Run around the 4th floor for dunno how many rounds (i lost count.)
Sang school song while we ran. I couldn't catch my breath haha.
Sang the songs for speech day then we went to sing Waltzing.
OMG, IT WAS A FAILURE FOR ME.
Ms yin didn't come today,only mr poh came.
Choir split into 3 grps, with me, liyin n limhui taking one grp each.
Then we had to conduct.
I failed totally. I suck at conducting. I was too fast. I don't have tempo. Now I am sad.
Limhui's grp was the best while liyin's grp had a constant volume which was good.
My grp died half way through the song. Failure.
Decided on the days when top 6 will have their interviews individually.
SCARED I CMI.
NOT CAN MAKE IT, BUT IS CANNOT MAKE IT.
Competition is tough. Everyone's better than me.
No room for me.
THE TRUTH IS SO DEPRESSING.

I shall be strong and not dependent on anyone, anymore.

Hello people. No one's tagging. ):
No one's tagging doesn't means no one's reading. I know.
Went out today with family to suntec. Felt sad on the inside.
Brought a shirt, sky blue. My favourite colour. Didn't manage to cheer me up.
On the way home was chatting with dumbdumb(u noe who,if u really dunno,shows how much u have not been reading my blog) dumbdumb is stupid but he said something which made me feel happy. Dumbdumb is dumb but he's my good friend :)
Got home,bathe.
Suddenly remembers something my mom said to me when she got my phone bill n realise i sms-ed 961 messages. BOOMZ.
She scold me n blah blah u noe.
But importantly, she said something i felt tat she got it right.
She said i was empty so i need lots n lots of friends to make up tat emptyness but u will still feel empty cos those friends can never fill up that space. True, i do feel empty inside. Now i seldom talk to amelia or weiting. Though i still go home with weiting,but things are not the same between us anymore.
Somehow, something has changed without us realising it.
Friends around me now,i don't feel secured.
Not like minshi,i noe nothing has changed between us. She's still my best friend. She still understands me.
Friends around me who i really trust are not many. Just a few. Like sharmaine n weiting n amelia n yingying n some ppl in 205 n some pri sch friends. Who else? No more.
To those other friends,i'm just another person tat u noe her name,no more.
I try to get close but i just can't.
It's tough.
Friends for life?
Easy to say, hard to prove.
Some people just don't belong in your life.

Since when I became so weak? I hear a song and I can cry already. For some reason, I hear this song and then my nose will turn sour and tears start to fall out.

Watching drama now!!!
The guy in the drama is super cute de! He sms the girl and then the girl did not reply. Then he keep on saying 'REPLY! REPLY! REPLY!' to the phone. Then thr girl still nvr reply so the guy keep saying 'U DUN WAN REPLY IS IT? QUICKLY REPLY IF NOT U WILL BE DEAD! pls reply lah...:(' TO THE HANDPHONE!
very cute right. haha. shall post a proper post after i finish the episode. :D

Sometimes I just can't help it to feel being left out. I don't like it. But maybe I just have to get use to the feeling of being left out 'cos I am being left out. You will never know how it feels to look from the outside until you experience it for yourself and then you will know how hurt it is to envy the people inside and you really wish that you could be in the inside. But what can you do? All I can do is to simply turn my head and be convinced that I don't belong in that world of theirs. As usual, I'm just another outsider.

Hello there to whoever is reading.
Okay nothin much to blog abt today besides the fact that I'm really tired after today's choir practice. Seriously, I'm tired.
2moro's Nan Hua's annual road run! Got our class tee yesterday. IT'S RED. AGAIN. JUST LIKE SEC 1.
Dunno why recently there's nothing that can cheer me up instantly. Even if it's funny, I would just laugh for 5 secs then I lost all my effort to laugh or even smile again. People say it's easier to smile than cry but i prefer crying more than laughing. Cos laughing, for me, takes effort and sometimes could be really tiring. I don't need effort to cry then the tears flow out by itself.
okok, i'm just being emo again. my usual self.
Shall go and find something which can cheer me up. (which i don't think i can find any)
byebye

once in a lifetime,means there's no second chance.

Remembering the memories when there was only me and you.

Hello everyone out there! Jieling had a busy day today. BUT I ENJOYED MYSELF. :D

Woke up this morning feeling really sleepy and didn't feel like going to the 205 basketball outing (me sharmaine chenfeng zhikai zhengyu). But lucky I went, if not I would have regretted not going today. :)

Got on the bus and went straight to taman jurong cc when we were supposed to meet at lakeside mrt station. SO STUPID RIGHT?! Then I took the bus and went back to Lakeside mrt station to meet the guys.

Then after tat we walked to the taman jurong cc. I felt really stupid cos I just came from thr and now we are going back. WTF. Haha.

Didn't really play a lot of basketball mostly cos I was uncomfortable but played for a while just for Sharmaine. :)

Played until 2 then played poker. The last time I touched cards was like during last year the class chalet? Haha become rusty already le. Played cheat and stress and reaction. OMG I love to play reaction now! :)

Then finished playing at 3 plus then headed to jurong point cos i'm meeting jinnyuan, martin and szelim after chenfeng and zhengyu and sharmaine left.

Szelim came early,before sharmaine and chenfeng and zhengyu left. Then me and szelim waited like 30 min for the 2 big boys to come. Finally they came.

Went to catch a movie. We watched Dear John! The movie which edeline told me about. The movie was quite nice but according to martin, the girl in the movie is a total slut. Haha. As you expected,I cried. But I did not cry as worse as I did when I watched 恋空.

The movie ended at 6.50 plus when it started at 5. On the bus martin and jinnyuan tricked me into telling them things abt someone when I was trying to trick jinnyuan into telling me abt his's someone. Haha but eventually, I got tricked and until I got home, then I realise jinnyuan haven told me abt his's someone yet when i told all abt someone.

Then talked to jinnyuan and martin through sms(now my sms-es are going to burst le!). Talked to martin abt how fake people can be. Talked to jinnyuan abt liking ppl who appreciates you for who you are.

Liking people who doesn't not even appreciates you is totally not worth it. I think both me and jinnyuan learnt something today. Haha :)

Ok tat's all for today. Shit it's like 12.30am already. Someone's telling me to sleep. :D

Haha. :)

byebye

I MISS MY PRI SCH FRIENDS CLIQUE. ESPECIALLY MINSHI!!!!!! I MISS YOU!
HELLO WORLD!
It's friday! The happiest day of the week cos it's like the last day of sch for the week. I love that feeling of I can wake up late the next morning.
I waiting for something to happen. But I am not going to tell you what am I hoping for.
Sch today was fine, laughed like hell during maths lesson due to huihui and terence as they were like insulting someone's ugly handwriting which I dunno who.

Terence say that:
-normal people draw line is straight line. *then he draws a straight line on his paper*
-people from woodbridge draw line is like quadratic curve. *then he draws a curve line*
-if _____(the person we are insulting) draw line is a distorted line. *then he draw a distorted line like the wave lines,or something like that*

THEN ME, HUIHUI AND DENNIS AND EVEN TERENCE HIMSELF BURST OUT INTO LAUGHTER! DAMN SUPER FUNNY I TELL YOU.

Haha.. after sch went out with chenfeng zhikai n sharmaine to eat lunch. Dunno why these few days I keep on seeing a guy from sharmaine's class who looks like a girl when ppl say he very handsome. I dunno,but seriously, he looks like a girl!

Got home and watched the last episode of 下一站，幸福. SUPER HAPPY ENDING! BOTH GUANGXI AND MUCHEN WERE SO SWEET AT THE END! For the first time I watch the last ep of a drama that I did not cry. But I was going to cry actually... haha. But I hold it back.

Started watching another drama again. China's version of Hana Yori Dango! Which means F4 lah.
Watched taiwanese, japanese and korean version le,so now watching the china version. Haha. Quite nice for the first ep but the plot line is a little different from the other 3 versions. Shall continue watching. :D

I wan to go watch movie! Who wan watch too?!!! Forget it. -.-
Shall blog again sometime later.
byebye
i just suddenly don't want to see your face again and i don't want to talk to you anymore. I hate you,again.

I know what you are thinking, so just shut up and get away from me!

Hello people. Choir was okay today but I was super depressed for some reasons which i can't even explain for myself. Mood was SAD + FRUSTRATED + DEPRESSED TO THE MAX.

Got to sch really early today cos yingying said she wanted to cry her hearts out so ME THE NICE PERSON, went to sch so early for the first time. But when i reached sch, i realised i was TOO early. Cos not even a single people is thr. So i waited. And waited. And waited. Finally yingying came and after a short while sharmaine came too. Yingying's having problems and I really could understand for all that u noe. Yingying is strong on the outside, but seriously, everyone has their times when they can break down. Bet no one ever seen me break down before. The only time i broke down was when i saw ____ tagging on ______'s blog. But I broke down alone, no one was with me. Cos i was at home. DUH!

Went to class with the same scared feeling I have every day (i wonder exactly when this feeling will stop?) and i noe why i have this scared feeling.
CEP was so-so. Topic for the day was INNER PEACE! Nearly fell asleep. I bet class 304 will nvr have inner peace cos of people like gregory, suelynn and ekkheng. haha but they are really funny.

Got back all my results. Sucky to the core can.
Eng: 17/30
Chinese: 32.5/50 (first time got B for chinese in my life)
A maths: 28/35 (crazy weiting got 34/35?!!!!!!!)
E maths: 31/40
Chemistry: 37/45
Physics: 27/45
Biology: 31/45
Geog: 12/18
Social Studies: 11/17
SUCKY TO THE MAX CAN????!!!!

Shall post again when I have the mood to do so.
Furthermore no one is comin to my blog anymore.
So why bother to update???

Doubt of the day:
I just can't get it, how could you take someone so important to you once for granted? I hope you will never regret losing such a friend.

Now I fell into the trap you set for me again when I just successfully climbed out of the trap and now you pushed me back into the trap and now I have to start all over again, so hard, in order to get out of the trap. You just needed one push to push me down, but I need tons of efforts to get back to the ground. You are just fooling me around again and again. I won't fall into the same trap again. Or will I?