Well, it's been like MILLIONS of days since I updated.

Okay so some change in things:

• Still deciding which JC to go, but not RJC for now. I know I'm a fickle-minded person, and I hate myself for that.
• SYF is on 15 April. Which is 11 days from now. And NHCHOIR is not good. Now I just wish that we can get a gold, in order to make my choice of going for DSA even possible. Without that gold, then I must just depend on my studies. WTS.
• It's April. 6 more months to O levels. WHAT THE SHIT IT'S SO DAMN FAST. Nvm it's better cos I'll get to leave this school faster and go meet new classmates. :D Still, I don't wanna leave all my good friends so soon.
• Saving up to buy a GUITAR! Hopefully I can get a pink one, but it's gonna cost way more than an ordinary one.
• Also looking out for a nice bag.
• What more changes? Everything is about the same.
• Oh next change, THIS BLOG IS DEAD. Shall give up on blogging.
• BYEBYE.

I AM DETERMINED.

Raffles JC here I come.

I shall jiayou to myself :)

Is it me or is it everything is getting boring-er and boring-er.

Tomorrow's Valentines!

In advance, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO EVERYONE!

Actually I always look forward to Valentines to get chocolates. Not that I want guys to give me chocolates, BUT BECAUSE OF THE FACT I AM FREAKING OBSESSED WITH CHOCOLATES.

Chocolates make my day :)

But it doesn't make me any slimmer. Just even more fatter. LALALA.

Anyways, can someone give me chocolates to eat. :(

Decided to delete my previous post because I'm silly.
Got to this fact thanks to my dear Yingying for telling me I was thinking toooooooo much.

happy sweet 16th, YINGYING HOR! (L)

Lots of cake smashing hoho. See pictures on my Fb!

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Finally it's Friday! One week has finally passed YAY.

But lots of tests coming up so BOO YEAH.

Just got home after eating @ Pizza Hut with MAY, JOEY & BOBSAI HUIHUI.

Nothing much to say so shall just end here.

Oh but one thing to say,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.

MONEY MONEY MONEY$$$$.

Bye :) Jieling loves you for reading! :)

I JUST FOUND OUT RECENTLY THAT I'M :

1. FREAKING FICKLE-MINDED.
2. LOVES TO USE THE WORD FREAKING


Okay, 2 things I found out about myself recently.




School's been fine, stressful though. Everyday go home just wanna sleep but there lots of homework to do. Too bad. And I miss 205 badly :(


D: Let's go out soon okayyyyyy.



Secondary 4 life sucks.

Now everyday I look forward to choir. Even though knowing that we're going to get scoldings, but still it's my only form of escape. I seriously doubt I can handle with the stress after Top 6 hand over the Choir. D: I'll miss singing so so much.

LALALA.

Okay I shall just look forward to SYF first. Gold here we come. Not that I doubt we can get a gold with honours, but practically speaking, with the choir progessing at this rate now, being able to sustain our gold might be tough. OKAY TOUCH WOOD.






Best picture I could find!

And thanks to these 2
FREAKING-CRAZY-YET-I-LOVE-THEM-SO-MUCH-DE-GO-HOME-TOGETHER-CHOIR-BUDDIES,
I manage to go through all these stress.
THANKYOU JASLYN HONG & LIUWEITING.
What am I gonna do without you two.


Sidetrack a bit,
THIS IS LIKE A THANKING CEREMONY. BUT OH WELL, SINCE I'M IN THE MOOD, WHO CARES :DDD


And also, thanks to MY-ALL-TIME-FAVOURITE-MUSHROOM, a.k.a. LAME QUEEN.
& BIMBO-HOR a.k.a. AH LIAN HOR!
& SHORTY EDELINE :)




LAST BUT NOT LEAST, THESE
FREAKING-AWESOME-PEOPLE-WHO-MADE-MY-TIME-IN-404-AMAZING.
I love JOURNEY TO THE FREAKING WEST.

-Guanyin mama.

HAHA inside joke.

HUIHUI'S NOT IN THIS PICTURE. SOMEDAY I'LL KIDNAP HER AND MAKE HER TAKE A PICTURE WITH MEEEE. :D

Well, lots more ppl to thank, but this basically sums it all.

Bye :)

I like how pictures are framed when I using this html. :)

Letters to you, you and you.

To many of you(s),

This really isn't about me isn't it. It's just all about you, then you again, and always you. And it always will be. Never changing. Everything will eventually come back to you. Because the end point of everything you do, is you.

I've seen so much people, met so many people, who are all just the same.

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What's that feeling I'm feeling right now at this moment. Lots of stuff.

Like there's something heavy on my chest. What was that word? Burdened.

Okay, this is gonna be a very disorganised post cos I'm just writing the first thing that comes to my mind right now.

It's been days since you were on my mind.

You, who always spoils my mood whenever I saw your message or your missed calls on my list.

Why. Cos I hate you?

But why when I realised I missed your birthday on the 12th, I feel so so bad. I'm so sorry I didn't reply you to say a simple Happy Birthday. I kept thinking about you the next day, and my mood was totally spoiled during the camp. Because whenever I think of you, I get reminded of certain things I wish I'd never remember. But why do I still feel guilty. Cos I threw away all the things you gave me? The thought of you just makes me want to hide in a corner and cry my heart out like that night. The worst night of my life. Maybe it's all my fault that things turned out this way. I never thought we would end up like this. All broken. Shattered.

And then you came back like nothing happened. But I'm not like you, I could never be like you.

And now there's only some things I like to tell you, even though I know you'll never read this.

I'm sorry for that night, that night when the moon wasn't up on the sky.

Wishin' I'd realise what I had when you were mine. Sorry for me being so stupid.

And I swear if we loved again I swear I'll love you right. I'll go back in time and change it, but I can't. And lastly, the words I didn't dare to tell you on that day, happy 16th birthday.

LALALA.

Currently listening to 987 FM Top 100 countdown.

OMG top 45 is One less Lonely girl by Justin Bieber haha. May's gonna be so damn happy if Baby was the Top #1 song of 2010. Hahah.

Okay so today's the last day of 2010.

Wishes for 2011:

1. GET ALL As FOR O'S. Hopefully a few A1 and one A2.

2. Save up.

3. Lose a few weights?

4. GROW TALLER.

5. Be a nicer person.

6. I hope all the people I love stays with me.

7. I hope nothing changes. I like the way things are right now.

Regrets for 2010:

1. Failed relationships. Friendship and other relationships likewise.

2. Not too good grades? Maybe.

3. Too selfish.

4. Never grow taller than I want. -.-

5. Too fat. I gained weight wtf.

Okay basically I love all my friends.

Top 44 is Kesha's Your Love is My Drug. 43 is Parachute. Lol parachute is such a nice song shld be top 30 at least.

Tonight's gonna be bombarded by new year msgs?

Hope I won't be late on the first day of sch huh. If not watermelon's gonna give me wake up call which is gonna be so damn embarrassing. But he say it's fine. Thanks to him I've been able to sleep these past week cos he's been talking to me until 2am in the morning just to accompany me. Thank you! :D best guy friend ever.

Okay THANK YOU TO EVERYONE who loved me this 2010. Yes, to you and you and you and my blog. Thanks blog, for listening me crap.

Okie byebye :)

Hey how do you like my new blogskin hohoho.

I spent hours to make it there cos of some problems I faced.

But in short, I'm stupid. Ya, and I'm lousy with computers.

Ok blog next time hehe bye :)

by the way, pls hover over the time beside the post cos I think it's chio :) I mean the effects.

Ya, I hate it.

I hate seeing people scolding each other. Is the person you are scolding really worth your attention? I don't know about you but for me, I simply don't give a god damn about what the person I hate says about me or whatever. Does scolding each other really makes you feel better? If it is, then I've nothing much to say.

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I'm just saying what I want to say so, please no comments.

It's just heartbreaking to see people targeting each other.

Just let it go, would you?

School's starting in a week's time and I'm not really prepared to start my life as a Sec 4.

Sec 4 life always seemed so far away for me when I was Sec 1. But in a week's time, I'm gonna be a Sec 4. WOW.

Stressful year, I bet. Mom says she gonna help me for O's, but rather then saying help, i think the better word is drill. Like how she helped me for my PSLE.

It was painful memories. Seriously? Painful.

Have you been whacked almost every week? By hands or belt or clothes hanger or whatever? Well I have. Have you cried almost everyday during a part of your life? I have too. After all that beating I received, I finally managed to jump from the one of the lousiest class of EM2 to the EM1. Not the best class of EM1 of course, but the last class of EM1.

Eventually I was 2nd in my P6 class and I cried after receiving my PSLE results. For what I cried? Maybe happiness, or just plain relief.

Since then, Mom nvr really beat me up already. Mostly sis is the one being beaten up. But i think hers is more painful, by a skipping rope which is made of plastic? Now I made my mom sound like someone who abuses us. Haha no but she says it's a process of studying. Whatever, I don't really care.

Really hope I can cope through 2011? Pray and pray and more praying.

And plus I still need to raise money to go Europe. T.T

And I wanna learn drums after O's. The kind where you put water on the drum and there is lighting below the drum? WOOHOO that's really cool.

Okay shall blog next time when I feel like blogging. Lol haha.

Bye :)