Doubts

I was never someone who needed someone else. At least not that I think I do. 

I never liked the idea that I was weak and needed someone else to acknowledge my existence. Who can give you that assurance other than yourself? 

Hate that I'm starting to doubt myself and hate to feel insecure again. Do I really need that someone? But there is too much what-ifs. How else can I convince myself. 

I need to be strong to carry on and I have to be. I just have to find the reason and hold on to the faith. 

A DAY WITH PRI SCH FRIENDS @ MY HOUSE:)

Minshi (L)

SUCCESSFUL GRP PHOTO!

A BIT EPIC + FAIL GRP PHOTO.

Only choose the nice photos with me inside and put them here HEEHEE.

It was a wonderful day with lots of fun + balls + POKER HEHEHEHEH.

Hope we'll have more of this kind of outing!

Unorganised post below.

Gonna meet up with Yingying later to study and chat hehe!

Currently listening to Broken Arrow by Pixie Lott. Used to be May's favourite, I only started listening to it cos I hear it in the movie Beastly. LOL HAHA. Now I'm spamming this song every hour. :)

Okay run out of things to talk about. LAME.

Blog in another few days' time!

Bye:)

Yesterday was study date + lunch with Limbin and Jinnyuan!

Played poker and we DID study. After Jinnyuan left, me and limbin were talking about studies all the way! Then we kept talking about Fleming's left hand and right hand rule LOL.

Later gonna meet up with Minshi and other friends! HEHEHE LOOKING FORWARD.

Pictures at the end of the day! :D

ITS FRIDAY.

16 DAYS TO PRELIM 1.

14 DAYS TO DAD AND MOM AND SIS COMING BACK.

Shld I be :D or D:?

Btw Legend of the Seeker 2 tonight! All time fav :)

Okay short post,

Bye:)

PHOTOS FROM YESTERDAY! FRM JASLYN :)

Okay I only took the grp photos and put them here HEEHEE.

LOVE THESE CRAZY PPL.

Another boring day! I realise I can only sit down and study alone at night. Like from evening to midnight 2 or something. I just can't study in the day!

Really hope to enjoy this June holidays, although Prelims is right after.

LOOKING FORWARD TO:

• Celebration of Joanne's bday(which is this sun) on the ___th?
• Meeting up with Minshi and other prisch friends this FRIDAY. FRIDAY FASTER COME~
• C^4 OUTING ON 15TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• Celebration of Minshi's birthday on the 20th! :D
• CHOIR ROD ON 21ST. WOOHOOOOOOOO!
• MOM DAD AND SIS COMING BACK ON THE 24TH. START COUNTING DOWN.

Okay basically that's all. Hmph but still so little outings! Anybody wanna jio me out for KBOX? HEHEHEH.

Before I end this post, I'll present this,

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TA-DA.

BOOMZ.

LOL HAHAHA.

AWESOME DAY. (Y)

Why was it awesome:

1. COS IT'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!

2. Drank KIO!

3. Had lots of fun with choir-go-home clique, POKER & LOTS OF KPOP. LOL hahaha. Did I mention there were LOTS OF DANCING TOO? Hahaha laugh my head off watching Jaslyn and Weiting dancing to kpop music. LUCKY we were at my house so no one could see the fantastic performance put up by Jaslyn and Weiting.

Okay but the day wasn't that awesome cos I'm ONE MORE DAY CLOSER TO PRELIMS.

Anyway good luck to everyone and I should really really refrain myself from using the comp.

SELF CONTROL.

Erm, maybe not.

Cute kitty! AWW:)

Cats reminds me of kester.

bye, love u for reading! :D

DAMN SHIT.

Wanted to give up on DSA and now I have to go again and I still dont have my CCA records and all these shit. WORSE THING IS DSA APPLICATION CLOSES ON 17 JUNE, WHICH IS 2 MORE WEEKS AND I STILL NEED TO MAIL IT TO THEM BY POST. SHIT.

Show u a piece of shit.

OH BIGGGGGGGG SHITTTTTTTT.

ISN'T THIS FUNNY HAHAHA.

CREDITS TO GOOGLE!

Never post in like millions of years.

Feel kinda lonely now, friends just left my house and I'm all alone at home. Shit i feel like crying again.

Mom dad and sis left for beijing for a month and during this one month, I'm basically living alone. ULTIMATE SADNESS.

IT SUCKS TO NOT HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK TO. EVEN IF TALKING TO MY ANNOYING SIS IS ALSO FINE WITH ME COS SHE IS AT LEAST CUTE. IT SUCKS. WHY DID I EVEN DAMN AGREED TO LIVING ON MY OWN. FREAK.

Bet no one ever reads my blog anymore. If someone does, pls tell me and I'll blog for the sake of your eyes. No motivation to blog. EVEN TWITTER IS CRASHING DOWN ON ME. FML.

Shall go and emo on my own, byebye :(

Well, it's been like MILLIONS of days since I updated.

Okay so some change in things:

• Still deciding which JC to go, but not RJC for now. I know I'm a fickle-minded person, and I hate myself for that.
• SYF is on 15 April. Which is 11 days from now. And NHCHOIR is not good. Now I just wish that we can get a gold, in order to make my choice of going for DSA even possible. Without that gold, then I must just depend on my studies. WTS.
• It's April. 6 more months to O levels. WHAT THE SHIT IT'S SO DAMN FAST. Nvm it's better cos I'll get to leave this school faster and go meet new classmates. :D Still, I don't wanna leave all my good friends so soon.
• Saving up to buy a GUITAR! Hopefully I can get a pink one, but it's gonna cost way more than an ordinary one.
• Also looking out for a nice bag.
• What more changes? Everything is about the same.
• Oh next change, THIS BLOG IS DEAD. Shall give up on blogging.
• BYEBYE.

I AM DETERMINED.

Raffles JC here I come.

I shall jiayou to myself :)

Is it me or is it everything is getting boring-er and boring-er.

Tomorrow's Valentines!

In advance, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO EVERYONE!

Actually I always look forward to Valentines to get chocolates. Not that I want guys to give me chocolates, BUT BECAUSE OF THE FACT I AM FREAKING OBSESSED WITH CHOCOLATES.

Chocolates make my day :)

But it doesn't make me any slimmer. Just even more fatter. LALALA.

Anyways, can someone give me chocolates to eat. :(