LALALA.

Currently listening to 987 FM Top 100 countdown.

OMG top 45 is One less Lonely girl by Justin Bieber haha. May's gonna be so damn happy if Baby was the Top #1 song of 2010. Hahah.

Okay so today's the last day of 2010.

Wishes for 2011:

1. GET ALL As FOR O'S. Hopefully a few A1 and one A2.

2. Save up.

3. Lose a few weights?

4. GROW TALLER.

5. Be a nicer person.

6. I hope all the people I love stays with me.

7. I hope nothing changes. I like the way things are right now.

Regrets for 2010:

1. Failed relationships. Friendship and other relationships likewise.

2. Not too good grades? Maybe.

3. Too selfish.

4. Never grow taller than I want. -.-

5. Too fat. I gained weight wtf.

Okay basically I love all my friends.

Top 44 is Kesha's Your Love is My Drug. 43 is Parachute. Lol parachute is such a nice song shld be top 30 at least.

Tonight's gonna be bombarded by new year msgs?

Hope I won't be late on the first day of sch huh. If not watermelon's gonna give me wake up call which is gonna be so damn embarrassing. But he say it's fine. Thanks to him I've been able to sleep these past week cos he's been talking to me until 2am in the morning just to accompany me. Thank you! :D best guy friend ever.

Okay THANK YOU TO EVERYONE who loved me this 2010. Yes, to you and you and you and my blog. Thanks blog, for listening me crap.

Okie byebye :)

Hey how do you like my new blogskin hohoho.

I spent hours to make it there cos of some problems I faced.

But in short, I'm stupid. Ya, and I'm lousy with computers.

Ok blog next time hehe bye :)

by the way, pls hover over the time beside the post cos I think it's chio :) I mean the effects.

Ya, I hate it.

I hate seeing people scolding each other. Is the person you are scolding really worth your attention? I don't know about you but for me, I simply don't give a god damn about what the person I hate says about me or whatever. Does scolding each other really makes you feel better? If it is, then I've nothing much to say.

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I'm just saying what I want to say so, please no comments.

It's just heartbreaking to see people targeting each other.

Just let it go, would you?

School's starting in a week's time and I'm not really prepared to start my life as a Sec 4.

Sec 4 life always seemed so far away for me when I was Sec 1. But in a week's time, I'm gonna be a Sec 4. WOW.

Stressful year, I bet. Mom says she gonna help me for O's, but rather then saying help, i think the better word is drill. Like how she helped me for my PSLE.

It was painful memories. Seriously? Painful.

Have you been whacked almost every week? By hands or belt or clothes hanger or whatever? Well I have. Have you cried almost everyday during a part of your life? I have too. After all that beating I received, I finally managed to jump from the one of the lousiest class of EM2 to the EM1. Not the best class of EM1 of course, but the last class of EM1.

Eventually I was 2nd in my P6 class and I cried after receiving my PSLE results. For what I cried? Maybe happiness, or just plain relief.

Since then, Mom nvr really beat me up already. Mostly sis is the one being beaten up. But i think hers is more painful, by a skipping rope which is made of plastic? Now I made my mom sound like someone who abuses us. Haha no but she says it's a process of studying. Whatever, I don't really care.

Really hope I can cope through 2011? Pray and pray and more praying.

And plus I still need to raise money to go Europe. T.T

And I wanna learn drums after O's. The kind where you put water on the drum and there is lighting below the drum? WOOHOO that's really cool.

Okay shall blog next time when I feel like blogging. Lol haha.

Bye :)

I kinda bored of blogging. Kinda.

I'm not the kind of person who takes a lot of photos and post them on my blog.

I'm not the kind of person who goes out every day and have something to blog about everyday.

I'm not that kind of person.

And I'm definitely not the kind of person who is nice enough to write every single thing that happened today. Cos I'm lazy.

Whatever.

By the way, dad told me he saw the pair of shoes at Rubi's and has my size. OHMYGOSH I'M SO EXCITED COS I'M GONNA GET IT TOMORROW NO MATTER WAT.

Okay I think I got split personality le.

Anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! :D

I LOVE MY FRIENDS.

BYE :)

I also yearn for someone who loves me for who i am. But first, I have to find that someone cos not everyone is the right one. Find me somebody to love~ Reminded of Justin Bieber LOL.

Well, ms saw haven post bio homework for 2 weeks now. I won't bother asking other ppl, cos if ms saw ask why i nvr do, i'll tell her the truth and show it to her,provided that she believes me or watever,i don't really care.

Been working for the past 4 days and tomorrow is my last day of work, for the week, at least. Next week still gotta work on 21/12, 22/12 and 23/12. $$$! HEHEH. Planning to my family a big feast after I get my pay. And maybe considering buying a coffee table for my family. Budget, below 200 bucks pls!

Well, I'm officially 15 already since my birthday was 2 days ago. Yeah someone spoilt my mood on that special day of mine. Nvm about that.

In fact, I wasn't really excited about my birthday, just that it's just another day and I needa go to work. SIAN.But for the sack of money, ya. I sound like a money freak.
But really, I AM POOR. Nothing changes that fact, not even when your birthday comes. Not like you'll get rich on your birthday or anything. It's just another normal day like any other, just that you feel a bit special cos it marks the ___th year that you are living on earth.

Anyway,I still enjoyed my birthday on a dinner date with family at weat mall. It was fun cos mom keep making weird noise and ugly faces and me and sis tried to imitate her but failed. Dad just kept laughing at mom HAHA. Dad was arguing with mom about which waitress serves our table and Dad says every waitress also can but Mom says only one serves one table. Then Mom was so brave to ask that waitress that she said, who she assumed to serve our table, and asked the waitress if she serves only our table.
The waitress was like HUH? and then HAHAHA No we serve every customer here. Then Mom was like so embarrassed HAHA. Me and sis just kept laughing and laughing. I'm glad I had a perfect family :)

I can't imagine what will it be like if I lost either one of my parents.
TOUCH WOOD.

Okay it 1.30am in the morning, guess I shld sleep now since I'm working tomorrow.

Bye :)
Btw I realise I have a thing for tall guys with black framed specs. OMG.

有没有那麽一种永远,
永远不改变.
拥抱过的美丽,
都再也不破碎.

Been listening to 五月天's songs and I find all of their songs so meaningful. Like the song 如烟 by them, the WHOLE SONG's lyrics doesn't repeat AT ALL. Every verses is different, every chorus is different. Now I totally love this song. Okay shall search for more songs by them.

Letter to myself.

Dear me,

You just don't learn your lessons. The same thing repeats over and over again and still, you don't learn your lesson. Wait till everyone that you love leaves you and then you will learn your lesson? Until then, it's already too late. Then you will be left there, all by yourself. I thought you can't live without your friends? But then why don't you treasure them? Always wait till they leave you then you regret. THEN YOU REGRET. So, does regretting help to bring them back? No, obviously. *roll eyes* Watermelon's gone and you didn't even say goodbye because you were watching that damn movie yesterday. And then you regret. Jaslyn's gone and you overslept and you didn't manage to say goodbye too. And then you regret. Who's next? Weiting? I know you don't think it's a big deal because they'll still be coming back but don't you just hate yourself for being such a lousy friend? Still say buddies. What kind of buddy are you. No one's gonna say 'Hey I'm walking out of your life and you suck, bye!' to you when they leave. You never know. All you have to do is to cherish them while they are STILL in your life. Don't do things that you will regret. DO NOT DO THAT. I hate how you are so self-centred. Cherish your friends if you really love them.

Loves,

Me.

P.s. I really hope they get back safe and sound. I'll give them a big hug when they come back.

Realisation struck me.

Shitty hell now I'm feeling so bad of myself. Why am I so selfish.

You know that it doesn't matter as long as we got each other.

Jay Sean- 2010 (It Ain't The End)

I always liked Jay Sean's songs (Y)

[Jay Sean]

Ohh ohh
2-0-1-2
Ohh-yeah
It's alright, Oh It's alright
You know what they say
Life aint always easy and everyday
we're survivors
So forget the day
Its all about tonight at the school and start a riot, a riot be rebel
Bottles poppin til we cant stand
We keep it rockn til 6 am
New York to London over to Japan

Turn it up .. Turn It Up.. Mash it up
We gonna party like
Party like it's the end of the world
We gonna party like, like it's 2012
You know that it doesn't matter as long as we got each other

Turn it up.. Turn it up .. Mash it up
It ain't the end of the world
Ohhhhh
Gonna live like it's the end of the world
Gonna party like
Ohhhhh
Turn it up... Turn it up... Mash it up
It ain't the end of the world

[Nicki Minaj]

Simile's, metaphors and we pop pills
sick flow inundated with the doc bills
work hard, now we know how to top bills
in the middle of the street doing cartwheels
lot of them tryna do it but its not real
wasn't a rapper then I coulda got a pop deal
white girls in a hot pink hot wheels
lot of bottles and a lot of booty cocktails
uh, days of our lives
you wink it goes by
so we'll just get it with no edits
anything goes so no time for closed minds
and free my lil weezy
and lets just get right
Young Money, Cash Money in the building
lets go the World ends tonight

[Jay Sean]

have a drink with me
And lets make tonight go down
In history.. in history yeahh
lets make believe
Its the last 24 hours and this whole world is ours
eternally, eternally

Heyyyyy
Bottles poppin til we cant stand
We keep it rockn til 6 am
New York to London over to Japan
Turn it up .. Turn It Up.. Mash it up
We gonna party like

Party like, like its the end of the world
We gonna party like, like it's 2012
You Know that it doesn't matter as long as we got each other
Turn it up.. Turn it up .. Mash it up
It ain't the end of the World
Ohhhhhhhhhhh
We got live like its the end of the world
We gotta party like
Ohhhhhhhhhhhh

Turn it up .. Turn It Up.. Mash it up
It aint the end of the world
Noooooooooooooooooooooo
No I'm not gonna follow
Anything that say anymore
It's never to late to start living
So let start it with here right now
Party like like its the end of the World
We gonna party like like it's 2012
You Know that it doesn't matter as long as we got each other

Turn it up.. Turn it up .. mash it up
It ain't the end of the world
Ohhhhhhhhh
We gonna live like its the end of the World
We gonna party like
Ohhhhhhhhh
The world
Because the world keeps spinning
The world keeps spinning around...

SO, I BROUGHT THIS BOOK. After buying Linger and Shiver.

Currently I'm already half way through the book. Quite a good book, but the plotline is progessing so slowwwwww.

Well, the book is about Angels (DUH.) and in this book, angels are not good and kind, in fact, they invaded the world and they suck up the energy fields of human beings, in other words, they fed on the energy fields of humans. After their energy fields being sucked, they become weaker and eventually die with some disease. But they of course didn't know it was the angels who killed them. Slowly, the angels become stronger while humans on Earth dies one by one. Then the CIA found out about this and they trained a batch of AKs, also known as Angel Killers. Basically, they go all over the world and kill angels with bullets. Then there was Alex, one of the AKs trained. He was instructed to kill Willow, who was a half-angel. Her mom is human while her dad is an angel.

But Willow doesn't know she was a half-angel until she met Alex. So the angels were determined to kill Willow because the angels think that Willow has the power to destroy the angels. Alex then helped Willow to run away while the angels are still tracking down both of them.

So that's what I know. So I think they fell in love and...

I don't know. Shall continue reading.

Anyway I think the cover of the book looks creepy. And the title totally contradicts the cover of the book. HAHA that's what my mom told me.

Okay this week's gonna be a busy week cos I'm going out everyday and the week following I'll be gone to Genting! YAY. :D

bye :)

I'm glad for some reason that I didn't go. Though I wasted $12. WTH.

But I was really feeling sick okay. Stop arguing with yourself.

Hero - Enrique Iglesias

Would you dance, if l asked you to dance?

Would you run, and never look back?

Would you cry, if you saw me crying?

And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble, if I touched your lips?

Would you laugh? Oh please tell me this.

Now would you die, for the one you loved?

Hold me in your arms, tonight.



I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

Would you swear, that you'll always be mine?

Or would you lie?

would you run and hide?

Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?

I don't care...You're here tonight.



I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.



Oh, I just want to hold you.

I just want to hold you.

Am I in too deep?

Have I lost my mind?

I don't care...You're here tonight.



I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by your forever.

You can take my breath away.



I can be your hero.

I can kiss away the pain.

And I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

You can take my breath away.


I can be your hero.

(Y)

Time flew.

Found this in my comp when I was deleting stuff. Haha i screenshot it from the video we took in Taiwan. Look at Mr Mun.

Holidays have been, well, fun at times and utterly boring at time. By the way I realise I like to use the word 'utterly' often. Not sure why.

Anyway, Culture Pot just ended a few days ago and it was a good performance, apart from the fact that during the last song, our timing was different but luckily we managed to get back on track before the song end. Ms Yin said it was a good performance and I think so too.

Sad to say, this would be my last time performing for Culture Pot. Next time, I'll be the one sitting thr, among the other audiences, watching NH choir perform. I'll definitely miss that feeling.

Time has been flying pass so quickly. Another year's going to end soon in a month's time.

Oh god it's raining again.

Anyway, time has been flying pass so quickly that I realise I've already spent 3 years of my life in NanHua.

Here in NanHua, memories of my secondary life were made.

Here in NanHua, I've met many many different kinds of people and also at the same time, found friends whom I can trust and rely on.

Here in NanHua, I've discovered my passion of singing and realise I can actually sing pretty okay.

During the times in NanHua, I've shed tears and yeah, experience things I thought I would never have done.

And also, I've regretted and rejoiced.

So many things that I'll never forget.

Sigh.

Okay shall stop being emotional.

Yesterday just got the SYF set piece for next year, called 'The Wind'.

Well, it was based on a poem and I thought it was easier than 'White Horses'.

Still, 'White Horses' sounded better.

Okay, run out of things to say.

One last thing to say,

Bye :)

I WANT TO JUST SLEEP.

sorry i'm not as confident as you. I'm just me.

3 words. Could mean the whole world.

Wow. Just watch The Time Traveler's Wife.

And I watched I Gave My First Love To You yesterday.

Both movies made me cry.

Both movies, the man died.

Both movies, the girl lived in pain after losing their love.

Oh god. So sad. Now I want to cry somemore.

OH GOD. I WANT.

I WANT BOTH OF THESE. BADLY.

PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE I WANT IT.

I want both of those pretty shoes. VERYMUCH.

I also want a bag with white and blue stripes like my blog's wallpaper now.

OH GOD. WHERE TO FIND ALL THESE STUFF.

I know I can get those shoes from COTTONON but WHERE do I get the bag.

FREAKFREAKFREAK I'M DESPERATE.

I don't know why I like blue so much.

Just like I don't know why I like the sky so much.

Btw, I TOTALLY LOVE MY NEW WALLPAPER.

EVERYTHING IS THIS WALLPAPER NOW.

Phone's wallpaper. Twitter's wallpaper. Blog's wallpaper.

I will never get tired looking at this wallpaper.

Reading Linger by Maggie Stiefvater currently.

I finish the 1st book 'Shiver' in like, 2 DAYS?

And it's like as thick as my bio textbook, just that the paper is smaller.

Great book I must say if not I wouldn't have finished the 1st book in 2 days and immediately brought the 2nd book 'Linger' even before I read finish 'Shiver'.

I really true to say that if you are a fan of Twilight, you will definitely love 'Shiver'.

There are 3 books to the series, 1st is 'Shiver', 2nd is 'Linger', while the 3rd one is 'Forever'

The sad thing is, I googled and found out 'Forever' is only gonna come out July 12, 2011.

Which is like, freaking long away?

But meanwhile, I'm deciding to read the book 'Lament', also by Maggie Stiefvater. I read the synopsis and think it'll be another great book hahaha.

Yesterday was the last day of school!

Officially saying:

'' Goodbye, school. HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO HOLIDAYS! I'm so glad to see you. :)''

Gonna be lots of shopping and playing and catching up with friends plus homework.

But still, holidays are here! YAY.

Mom asked me to work at her place. $6-$8/hour!

Great deal but it's during my birthday week. So the whole week I'm working from 7.30am to 6pm.

I'm pathetic, having to work on my birthday.

BUT STILL, there's money to earn! :)

LALALALALA. I feel like a bird just let out of her cage.

And I want to be a blue bird. Like those blue birds which appear in disney fairytales.

Oh blue reminds me of the movie 'Megamind'.

'OH MY GIANT BLUE HEAD!'

Hahahaha. Bye :)

I knocked my wrist on my marble table and now there's a bruise on my wrist.

How cool is that.

Well, school's being tiring lately, everyday until 3 instead of normal time 2.30pm.

Plus, there's CCA! -.-

Chinese O lvls in 3 days' time. Fast huh.

But after that it will be time to PARTYYYYYE.

Haha haven gone shopping with yingying and edeline as promised.

Definitely will go after chinese Os.

Honestly, I'm not very scared for chinese Os. Maybe because chinese have always been my best subject since I was P1. Still, preparation is still necessary! Thanks to mom I having chinese tuition at home almost everyday.

Oh I saw Martin on the way to sch on wed. Oh boy isn't he tall. His head was like going to hit the ceiling of the bus when he was standing up. He always have to bend down to hear what I saying. Haha sorry for the fact that he's too tall. I'm not short okay.

He made me thought of Minshi and all of a sudden I was emo-ing.

I MISS MINSHI LIKE HELL SHITTTT.

I miss her smile.

I miss her laugh.

I miss her cheerfulness.

I miss how she always care for others before thinking of herself.

I miss the days when we went home together.

I miss her everything.

Most importantly, I MISS MY BESTEST FRIEND.

Oh god I sound like some weird stalker.

Anyways, I wish her all the best for her chinese O lvls.

Definitely going to meet her up after chinese Os and catch up with her.

Force her to tell me everything. HEHEHEHE.

I LOVE MY BEST FRIEND.

They say you always meet your best friend when you're young, because that's when your hearts are the purest. In my best friend, I found her pure heart. And I'm so glad that I found her.

''Best friends are like diamonds, hard to find.

False friends are like fallen leaves, found everywhere.''

-Anomalous

Hope time pass quickly.

Byebye :)

I'm tired of being someone that I'm not.

It makes me feel so fake. I wasn't like this in the past.

What exactly changed me to become this person whom I no longer recognise?

From this day onwards, I'll be who I am on the inside.

But it's easy to say, hard to do.

I hate this. A lot.

This is life. And life sucks.

Well, at least most of it sucks.

Well I guess I'm here blogging cos I'm sad. Again.

Well I guess I don't really have the right to be sad after getting back my progess report.
Don't wanna talk about it, just plainly, sad.
I dropped in level position, and I didn't get what I wanted badly. I should have expected this in the first place.
Nvm, I'm sad. I wanna get out of 304.
Sure, I'll miss May Joey Noreen Huihui Shien Yingzhen, of course I will. But I need something that 304 doesn't have. But apparently, Edeline says too much of it is bad, just like her class 308.

Had lunch with 205 ppl, as usual. Saw suelynn they all, quite a big bunch of them, and I was, erm, not that I'm unhappy or what, but just sian diao all of a sudden. Then I turned back to my 205 ppl, and instantly forgot their presence. A small part of me, deep inside, wished that one day I wouldn't be in the same class as those ppl. Instead, I will have all my fav ppl in the same class. I know that's kinda selfish but still, can't help wishing, although I know it will never come true.
So no harm wishing, right?

Choir isn't much for me lately, since practices are so few. It's been a long time since I sat down(actually it's standing up) and sing properly like before, with no other stuff in my mind. I can't remember when was the last time. The last time I saw Ms yin? Maybe. Speaking of which, I kinda miss Ms yin's teaching and singing etc. Bet she's busy with her wedding, I guess.

Life's been boring. Chinese O lvls is coming. Sian big time.


Made a bullet list about me: (Cos I'm bored)

• Well, I hate soft toys.
• I cry like shit when you wake me up while I'm in a good sleep.
• I'm quite scared of ghost. Sometimes.
• I love veggies :)
• I'm short.
• I am 156 cm tall. I think.
• I'm turning 15 in around 2 month's time!
• I have mood swings, sometimes. Not because of periods, but because I like it.
• I hate to wear watches.
• I hate to have hair pins all over my head. That's why I always wonder why do girls like to put so many pins on their hair.
• I hate cutting fingernails. But I DO cut them, when neccessary.
• I like to shake my leg. Though I'm already trying my BEST to get rid of that habit of mine.
• I listen to KPOP but I don't look at Korean ppl.
• I don't have a favourite singer. That's why when ppl ask me whose's my fav singer and when I say don't really have, ppl always have that shock look on their face. Very shocking meh?
• I listen to songs because I like their song.
• I listen to songs which are meaningful.
• I don't listen to songs just because they are popular.
• I like to twist my wrist so that I always hear the cracking sound of the bone.
• I am fat. At least my mom thinks I am.
• I like being alone sometimes. Because it gives me time to think of certain stuff.
• I hate being alone in crowded places because it just gives me the feeling of emptiness.
• I can't really live without friends. Friends are like the second essential thing to me after food and water.
• Sometimes I envy people because they are smart and/or pretty.
• I envy people who are rich because they always get what they want. At least, most of the time they get what they want.
• But sometimes I'm glad that I'm not very rich as it allows me to cherish things.
• But still, sometimes I don't cherish stuffs. Such as relationships with others.
• I used to carry my bag real low in the past. But now, I think carrying a bag real low looks really ugly.
• I judge people. If you don't like it, just turn around and get the hell out of my sight.
• I treat you good because you treat me good. Simple? Treat me good and I'll treat you the same way back.
• I can be real nasty if I want to.
• I'm not a pushover because I DO have a temper.
• I like gossiping with my friends. Though it's not really good.
• I like having fun.
• I'm not a nerd who studies all day, I'm just forced by my mom.
• I am a computer noob because I don't know a lot of stuffs about computer.
• I have small eyes.
• I don't really have a lot of pimples. Which I thankful for that fact.
• I like to look at pretty girls. I'm not lesbian.
• I often look at ppl's legs.
• I know I'm weird.
• Guessed that I really bored but I certainly did make a long list of myself.
• Last but not least, I love chocolates. :) It makes me happy!

Byebye.

How great. -.-


Wanted to start on something emo-ish, which was on my mind when I was watching the tv just now. But then I suddenly remember of what May told me about my style of blogging.
She said, I only blog when I'm emo and that's why it makes all my posts emo-ish.
Well, that's kinda true cos I'm too busy happy-ing when I'm happy,thus no time to blog.
Haha ok shall get back to what I want to say just now.

//
Certainly hope anyone from 304 who reads this will not get misunderstood. I'm just saying out what I want to say.

After the class chalet, I realise my class is really politic.

Everyone is doing their own stuff, which makes it no point of having a class chalet. But still, I want to thank Suemae because I recognise her effort of trying to make the class more bonded. However, quoted from Yewshen, There are just some people in the class who you can never get along with. For that, I TOTALLY agree.

Up till now, I still think that this class chalet was a bit wasted/ruined or whatever-word-you-use-to-describe-'screwed'. It makes it no different from having a chalet which your own clique of people. The only difference is, we sleep in the same chalet together.

At least, you get to sleep on the bed when you have a chalet with your clique and there's no need for everyone to cramp together in one little room. And plus, you know what, you don't need to get fed up or bu4 shuang3 or whatsoever! WOW! HOW GREAT!

Well, my point is, STOP being selfish and STOP thinking only for yourself. Like HELLO? I'm here??? Don't you see me cos I'm like quite noticable and I'm like,quite BIG size? If you don't see me, then I seriously advice you to go for a check up for your eyes.

Oh or maybe it's too dark for you to see me alone but I trust that you DO see the 5 or 6 people sleeping on the floor? Or maybe you missed that too. Oh or do you need to go for a ear check up too cos we gave you like, TWO warnings? And please have some respect for us. Too bad there's isn't a course like How-to-treat-people-with-respect. Or maybe I can start a course like that myself and I'll be your tutor. Then I should start thinking about the course fees too.

Oh how great. Now all your doings and getting you into trouble with the others. Don't blame others when you suffer the consequences because you were the one who made this happen.

//
Wow I'm so great. Proud of myself.
Feel so shuang after ranting.
Okay really feel offensive but, who cares.

Will you side me unconditionally, no matter what?

I want to go learn something.

Seriously, learn something because of myself, not because of school or whatsoever.

Not singing, of course. *oops*

What should I learn? That's the question.

Gosh, not sports also. I'm not really good at sports after I came to secondary school.

Not dancing, also.

Suddenly thought of dragon-boating. WOO~~ BUT, on second thought, it will make me even blacker than I already is.

Hmm, not any musical instrument. Definitely not.

Any suggestions?

Feeling rather down now. Although paper 1 has already ended. Shouldn't I be rejoicing?

Thinking about friendships in my life.

Okay today I think a bit too much, maybe.

First, I saw Songlin on the bus this morning. Totally dao. You know how it feels to be ignored by a friend that you were once close to? Okay maybe me and him not that close but come on, how long have we been friends already. Since p3(as I rmb). Wow if you dont know, it's about 6 years.

You know HOW MUCH I envy people who has friendships that were from kindergarden or p1? Like dennis and edeline. You know how hard this kind of friendship is to find? I want such a friendship too. Felt so hurt being ignored. Am I so not worth it?

Am I really that unworthy?

Another question that I always ask myself in my head. Wish someone could tell me.

YES, I AM THAT UNWORTHY, HAPPY?

Then suddenly thought of friendships now. Where's Amelia and Weiting?

I miss them. But it's like they have already moved on and have their own friends and own cliques. Only people like me yingying sharmaine chenfeng zhikai, have not moved on from the past. Maybe we loved too much. Too much love on 205.

I like spending with my 304 girls now. May Joey Shien Huihui Noreen Yingzhen. I love them. Finally after so long in this class, I found people to rely on. It's good to find some place where your heart can rely on and feel happy. In these people, I found the place.

Choir is still my escape, but recently things are breaking apart for me. I love singing, that's no doubt. But the things, the people in choir, it's tiring.

Today went for these talk on a 6week trip with the sch to Beijing. I really want to go. But it's during intensive training for choir in preparation for SYF. If it was the last time me, I will be firm and say, I DON'T WANT TO GO EVEN IF HOW MUCH I WANT BECAUSE I WANT TO BE THERE FOR MY CHOIR. But the now me is telling me, I SHLD GO BEIJING BECAUSE IT IS A NEW EXPERIENCE. Even if I really did not go Beijing and go for practices for SYF, it will only because of the cca points. I'm being straightforward here. For the past, I can firmly say how much I love my choir and how much I want to do for my choir. But now, look at what's happening. I'm tiring of worrying. No one told me that being in choir, you have to worry so much OTHER then singing well. That's definitely NOT THE TRUE PURPOSE of being in a choir.

You can tell me, since I'm in the exco of choir, I shldn't be thinking this way. But HELLO? I'm human too and in case you didn't know, I am a person who cannot handle stress. Everyone is tired. Can I just be a member and care about nothing other than doing my part as a member and sing well.

I'm not that strong as you think I am. Sorry if I gave you the wrong impression that I'm a strong person.

Back to the days when life is without you.

Haven been blogging recently, mostly cos I'm busy or just simply lazy.
Many things happened to my life recently, loss and gain.
Mostly I can thought of, is loss.
But I don't regret my decision. Since I made that decision, I will not regret it.
Thanks yingying, for being there for me in my times of need and advice.
No one wanted this kind of ending.
But at least, it ended rather beautifully for me.

Yesterday was Mid autumn celebrations, bascially screwed performance.
No one's fault, but can't help to have that strain in the heart.
After all the hardwork. After all the sweat.
Screwed.

Shall not say more about it, I'm just simply tired.

EOYs are in about 2 weeks' time. So quick. Shall start mugging for them.
Zoning out.

there's never a right time to say goodbye. but i wish you find happiness.

Yesterday's Comm lunch with NHCHOIR & HWACHONG CHOIR.

Minshi took this during teacher's day. The cloud is nice:)

I envy them. Will we be the same too?

Well realise my blog is rather boring. But still, I dont care cause that's just me:)

Been quite a hectic week this week.
Mon's sch.
Tues is Teacher's Day!
ACES day and Mass walk to Clementi woods park again -.-
Concert was not bad. Dance performance was........not best but THE BEST.
Chiong back to JPS.
Saw lots of old primary school friends and ate at JPS. Wow the food thr is still as delicious and CHEAP as ever.
One big cup of milo only cost 40 cents. WOW. JPS's milo is the best milo I ever drank in my entire life.
Miss primary sch life sooooo much.
Mrs Shum wasn't there. She had to take care of her kids. Jovan? Haha.
Saw huang lao shi. Still as PRETTY as ever!
Oh yeah this time I finally managed to give Minshi her present which I personally made for her during last year Nanhua's Openhouse?! Haha, hope Minshi like the keychain I made for her! :)
Got out of sch quite early and slacked at the void deck nearby.
Was quite frustrated with the guys cos they were so undecisive about whr they wanted to go.
In the end we went NO WHR.
Slack at the playground near the canal for 2h plus. Like what we always do. Every year!
Went home.




Ok actually I totally no mood to blog today. Tired + I cant figure out my thoughts.
Days been slow for me recently.
Yingying's words kept ringing in my head. To put in more trust and faith. But how am I suppose to do that when you are doing this? Stop killing my spirits. Suffering inside, and tears well up my eyes. I don't want to keep wiping off my tears anymore. What should I do?

Want to tell but I don't know where or even how to start. Someone, anyone, tell me what to do.

也许是累了吧，也许本来就是不匹配的恩赐。和你相识如像一场梦，你曾经是我的火焰，焰火般的照亮了我的世界。如今，我只能在黑暗中默默地遗憾。
-叶灼
Quoted from Meteor Garden 2(China Version)

SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

I want a hug too :)

2nd post of the day.

Well, realise I'm quite a bad friend because I haven been going to people's blogs and understanding their problems they are facing deep inside their heart, behind the mask that they have to fake everyday. I know it hurts a lot. So here, I want to say something.

Post dedicated to 2 very special people.

1) Hor YingYing

2) May Ong

First, to my best girlfriend, Yingying:) Well I read your blog and realise you are always irritated by this irritating person(which i dont know who) and you always sound quite fed up in all your post. Maybe it's cos this week we haven been talking a lot so I haven get to know about the details, but I just want tell you, dont waste your time getting angry and fed up about people who are not worth mentioning about and these people who are irritating are just maggots who are rotten people.

We cant stop rotten people from rotting because they are rotten-ed but we can deal with them by throwing them at the back of our heads and heck care them :)

You know, there are still good friends behind you to support you! Whenever you are tired, you can just look back and you can be assured I'll be behind you and lending you a shoulder to rest on! Although my shoulders not that broad and comfy but still, Jieling will always be here! :D

Next, to this also special person whom I only met this year but still special, May :)

Read May's blog and realise she was really really upset about this 5-day CO prac. If it was me, I'm sure that I will also be very upset to hear that there is a 5-day Choir prac, although I'm one of the Top 6. Still, 5-day prac is a torture. Not only for Choir(cos I bet if u practice for 5 days non stop u will DEFINITELY lose your voice), but also for CO.

But, I'm sure the committee or teacher-in-charge or whoever-decided-on-this-thing must have his/her reason for it. So dont be too upset and always be happy!

Dont let your passion diminish because it's something very special and it's a one-of-a-kind thing. Passion is the drive which keeps you moving. The drive to do better,the drive to strive for more,the drive to play your instrument better, and for me, passion is the drive which keeps me holding on to this Choir and not giving up on it and at the same time, not giving up on myself because I'm not going to let Choir fail at my batch. So jiayou! :D

Last but not least, for both Yingying and May, here is something Hillary once told me when I was down. Hope Hillary doesn't mind I copy her words here.

''These things bring me down, and look as if they will bring you down, but hey, just put on a smile, and eventually your mask, will become a part of you.''

Just to want to say, sometimes it's okay to put on a mask because this is a form of protection but be sure to share your troubles with someone who can understand :) It will make you feel better too!

*refers to the picture above* Jieling can give you free hugs! :)

If you realise, this is the chocolate that Mr Wong gave for ppl who got A1 for the Physics Class test on Refraction! But he gave us the dark chocolate de. Mine is Milk chocolate! HEEHEEHEE MY FAVVVVV.
All Milk Chocolates ROCK.
Never mind about how much fat it will bring me, BUT CHOCOLATE BRINGS ME HAPPINESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! :D
Even talking about chocolates makes me go HIGH.

Well I'm bored to death at home, as usual.

Shall end this post with the hilarious photo of my sis.
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Bye :)

Really glad that the 3 selected ppl did their reflections on the 2 choir practices this week!
Totally lighten up my day today! :)
Gogogo to http://nh-choir.blogspot.com/ now!
:D

Currently watching Meteor Garden 2 the China version now. Getting more sad and sad.

Commons is over,which is a good thing, but now I totally have nothing to do at home.
Other than using the comp, watching tv, sleep, eat, thr's nth left for me to do.
Boringggg. Realise EOY is in 6 weeks' time. Yet don't have the sense of urgency to study.
Hopeless.

Tues is Teacher's Day! As well as Aces Day, not to mention. Mass walk in the morning again. I really hope that it rains in the morning! :D :D :D PLS PLS PLS RAIN :)
Gonna meet up with all pri sch friends and I'm so excited :)

Wed gonna go out with all my 205 beloved :)

Well I suddenly thought of this:

My Sec 3 life will also be ending in a few months' time and my sec 4 life is already prepared.
I still rmb ranting abt 304 at the start of this year, saying stuff like 'I hate 304' or those i-am-emoish-cos-i-am-not-happy-in-my-class stuff. It felt like only 1 month ago but it has alr been more than half a year. Time goes so fast, things changing for me so fast. But I certainly hope friendship doesn't change, people doesn't change.

But people won't always stay the same. People always change to adapt to their own environment, to adapt in order to live better in it. People change because they want something.
What do you want?

Has anyone told you that you have changed? Think about it.


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Realise my every post is like reflection on myself.
You think so too?

Hey thr everyone!

One more week to sch end.
Everything seem to go so fast. It felt like sch just reopen-ed from June holidays.
But now only left 1 week to sch end.
Not like I'm sad that sch's ending but I'm sad that time is going so fast.


Sch was fine today, as usual.
Went home alone today, suddenly it hit me while I was walking to the bus stop that it's been a long time since I went home alone. Feels weird, but not too bad.


Going to the 198 bus stop brings memories. Sitting on that bench waiting for the bus brings memories. Memories that I will keep them close to my heart. Sometimes I do regret,though. I would be lying if I say I did not regret my decision. But, reality is just like that. Nothing now can be brought back to the past.


Saw Martin when I got down the bus. In fact he was on the same bus as me, just that I was too dumb to notice cos I was so sleepy. Talked to him for a while, did he grow taller? Haha maybe. All the while he was very tall. Teacher's Day is coming and I going back to JPS! *excited*


We parted and I started thinking, things are not as awkward as it was before. We are good friends again. That's a good thing :)











Been ignored by someone recently and it pisses me off and hurts me too. Heard frm others that he currently jio-ing someone. Maybe this is good for him. But still, that doesn't give him rights to ignore me and blah blah stuff like that. Complained to Jaslyn and she said, 'OH THIS IS NORMAL WAT.他就是这种人.' Hmm. Maybe 你真的是这种人，只是我之前没有看清你.

Ok today found out sch 2nd floor lift lobby got my (PRETTY) photo. Here it is................................................................................................................................................

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Ta-da!
Haha unglam much but that was taken in sec 2! Didn't realise my fringe was so long.

Haha tat's all for today :)
Byebye :D

Make me wanna continue trying.
Dont make me wanna give up on trying.
Stop killing my emotions and seriously,
Stop dampening my spirits.

Sometimes just dont feel connected. Maybe it's cos of the ppl, maybe it's cos of the environment, or maybe, it's cos of me. Feel like there's a river that is between me and them and they wont walk to me cos that river might just kill them and I'm too afraid to step to the river becos they dont wanna try. 1 year plus more to go. Cant possibly live like that. Miss 205 badly. BADLY.

But still, a big thank you to some really nice ppl in my class like May Joey Noreen Huihui Shien and I like laughing with them. Although most of the times we are all laughing at Noreen's stupid comments or actions. Cos she's our joke :)

Thanks to HOR YINGYING and SHARMAINE TANHUIMIN, I managed to survive through this months. Thanks to Choir, for being my all-time escape from the busy Sec 3 life. Thanks to all my fav choir buddies and special thanks to my Choir Comm Top 6!

Thanks to you, being there for me even when I cry in front of you and when you ask me what happened I dont tell you and you just simply said, 'Cry, and after crying, things will be okay.'
Thanks to you for always singing at my ear when you know your singing sucks but still continue singing cos ur singing makes me laugh.
Thanks for making me feel safe.

I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU THAT I MENTIONED IN THIS POST. :D
Bye :)

At the comp lab now.
Woo 6 papers down, 3 more to go!
Yay! 2moro is a maths and bio then fri is physics.
I wanna go out on sat!!! But.....:(
Well. I'm mad damn bored so I just changed the background picture of my blog.
THE BLUE SKY. MY FAV.
Anyway, thanks to May for commenting on my previous previous previous post!
Thanks a lot :)
The blue ssky is damnnnn niceeee.
Bye :)

2moro's common test. Yet I'm still here.
Sigh. Big time.
My life has been quite boring recently and tiring, not to mention.
But thanks to all my besties and you, i still carry on with my life.
Need my escape. ASAP.

To that special someone:

Hope you stop ignoring me because it hurts me and hurts even more to pretend that I dont mind.

Cant we talk like we used to before?

Is it so hard for you to just stop your feet for a moment and walk to me and say a simple word like Hi?

Maybe I'm asking too much.

Maybe I'm just not used to being not close to you.

Maybe, I'll just have to get use to it.

Get use to being just a normal friend to you and not a close friend.

It hurts.

Ok I'm super tired and stress recently and now I got pimples on my face alr.
WTHHHH.
So, yesterday went with YINGYING to vivo to look for wallet but.......
VIVO'S ROXY OUTLET DOESNT SELL THE WALLET I WANT. -.-
So lousy!! D:
But thr's only 2 roxy outlets in Singapore and the other one is at Plaza Sing.
So maybe if I have the time I would go thr to take a look but I suddenly rmb I can go Queensway Shopping centre to take a look first.
But that will be after the Commontests end. Which is like 2 weeks later.
Ok guessed I digress a little.
So me and ying went many other shops to look around. Sadly,nth seems to catch our eyes.
But we did buy sth. We brought couple earpiece! :) Bling bling. Cos thr is fake diamond on the earpiece.
Then train-ed back to Clementi. Yingying went to find her friend while I waited for Edeline to come. Edeline came while I was on the phone.
Ate subway with edeline and it was great! It's nice to talk to her cos it seems like we have endless topic to talk abt. Sometimes I really think edeline and me are really alike! Yingying thinks so too :)
Walked to sch and assembled. Chong ee was being funny again haha. But he can be really fierce in Band(according to edeline) and he always has to be the bad guy.
Guess that thr is no bad guys in Choir, is thr? Everyone is so gentle and thr isn't anyone who is particularly fierce in Choir. Maybe cos Choir is mostly girls and better to deal with?

So got to Marina Platform and got our costumes! It was quite nice, UNTIL WE SAW THE SOCKS. The socks is like so long which reaches until our knee caps? -.- We looked like christmas carols. I like the jacket,though. Can wear to sch and show off a little. HAHA.
Oh and we got free sch shoes. YAY no need to buy extra le :)

So we danced danced danced. BORING.
But the whole platform was full, all the audiences were present.
Felt that this YOG opening ceremony is NOTHING COMPARED to Beijing's Olympic opening ceremony. Totally. One is 'WOW!' while the other is 'OK...' and ya, u noe which one is the 'WOW!' one.
Ok I shld seriously stop digressing.

Left the F1 pit directly cos I was taking Cheryl lim's car. Thanks cheryl! Although she will not see this but still,ya.
Cheryl's dad is so cute! Cheryl showed me a photo whr her dad was trying to act PAI while wearing cheryl's shades & Wearing a doramon shirt! Haha the shirt totally contradicts the image of PAI. haha thanks to cheryl's dad, I got to eat tiramisu at Fullerton Hotel. OMG it was so high class. Me and cheryl were like sitting in the middle and eating our cakes and some angmor sometimes will stare at us and whisper to themselves. I noe, both of us totally looked like country bumpkin.
Got home and bath. Slept at 1 plus.

Woke up at 10.43 today,woken up by my sis cos she keeping hitting my arm.
Prepared and went to meet up with Charmaine first then Hans then Hillary.
Met jiarong and weiping at Eunos mrt and then waited for Hidaya to come.
Had lunch at a kopitam and then headed to ECP.
Wow the weather today was damn humid.
Rent bikes and this 3 wheel thingy.
the 3 wheels thingy is sth like thr are 1 wheel in front and 2 wheels behind. U got to stand on the thing and move the thing which ur hands and legs. Full body workout!
U can go see the pictures posted on facebook to see how the thingy looks like.
Cycled and played and photo-ed.
Then went home with C,Hans and Hillary.
Took a train home and then while I was waiting for the bus to come to get home,mom called me and nagged at me for why coming home so late cos she was waiting for me to go out with her and dad and sis. Guessed I shouted at her tat I dont wan to go out and I'm tired.
I hang up the phone and 1 sec later I felt so guilty.
Always I've been going out with my friends and the last time I went out with family was like, I DUNNO WHEN?! Mom always said tat to me and I always just ignored her.
I've been really neglecting my family. But I was so stressed.
Cos of YOG, mainly. I really hate myself for not being able to spend time with family.
But on the bus I was still blaming my mom for being so unreasonable.
After I got down the bus, I saw mom dad and sis at the bus stop. I was still piss-ed then.
Then my mom and dad suddenly asked me. '今天玩得开心吗？累不累？'
I suddenly realise mom and dad were so concerned abt me. Managed to hold back my tears while talking to them. After they got up the bus and I turned around, I broke down.
On the way walking to the stairs, I kept crying and crying.
I dont noe tears are cos I was touched or I was stressed. Normally I cry like tat cos I was stressed.
Made a pact with myself that, for the future, I will always make time to spend with my family. Even if time is so tight for me. So sorry to mom and dad and sis. I dont wan to regret it next time if my parents pass away. Of cos, I would nvr wan them to die. But life is just like tat. You live, then you die. Dad is alr 55. I'll be lying if I say I'm not scared that he will leave me. I want to cherish every moment I have with mom and dad. Wouldn't wan to miss out a single thing.
I'm grateful that I have a perfect family and I will not take it for granted.
Most importantly, I dont wan to regret.
Cherish everything while you still can.

Ok suddenly my post become so emo-ish.
Wow this post took me an hour to complete.
Shall go and eat dinner.
Bye :)

Before you quit,try.

Chionging homework now,later gonna go out with beloved YINGYING to vivo and get that chio wallet! Maybe getting the grey one:) Really really hope that I can find the wallet I want!
After that then will be heading to sch for YOG rehearsal today! Sigh whole day is wasted again. But at least I can get my wallet! PROVIDED I CAN FIND IT. If I cant find it,then seriously my whole day is wasted.

2moro gonna meet up with Minshi and other pri sch friends first,cos celebrating national day baby MARTIN's bday. Then after tat will meet up with C^4 ppl to celebrate HANS' bday. Woo~
Better start writing birthday cards first to both of them.

Yesterday was National Day celebration! It was quite....awesome? I sang for Home, Limhui sang for My Island Home, while Charmaine got to sing her fav Song for Singapore! Haha, I was so nervous up thr.
After the celebration, went out with Yingying, chenfeng and yeesiang to JP. Initially wanted to eat pizza hut but it was bombarded by students. So went to Long John for lunch.
Then I headed home while the other wanted to watch The Last Airbender but they did not in the end. Got home and watched drama on comp until dinner time! I have so much to catch up with.
After dinner went running. Haha didnt run much, most of the time I was sitting on the bike.
Got home and slept :)

Ok shall go prepare now then shall be puntual and meet YINGYING! :D
REALLY REALLY HOPE I CAN FIND THE WALLET I WANT!!!
bye:)

i want to go JC asap. Get out of this mess this sch is giving me. Know new friends and i seriously need another new environment to live in or even study in,

HEHEHE Which one shld I get??

Hey ppl!
Just changed my blogskin. I really like the blossoms.
This is the only blogger template that I like.
The others are just sucky to the max.
2moro's National Day Celebration and it would be erm..not fun.
Mom wont let me go out after the celebration thingy cos I need go home take care of my sis.
KNS. Sigh big time.
Ok going off. Shall blog 2moro.
Byebye:)

feeling more and more pathetic.

Since. When. I. Dont. Know. I. Fell. But. It. Did. Not. Hurt. Cos. I. Know. You. Were. Gonna. Catch. Me.

WOOOOOOOO. Yo ppl out thr.
Sec 3 has been rather busy recently, with all the CIPs and YOG rehearsals.
2moro's Bio test, btw. And I haven start my revision yet.
CRAPPP.
Btw yesterday was ACSI's Guitar & Choir concert.
Too bad Hadi didn't go cos he was having high fever and resting at home.
So, me sharmaine yingying and chenfeng watched the concert cos sharmaine's friend was performing. Got home at 7.
Went running at 8. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Got home at around 10 haha.
Was so exhausted. Thigh was aching. Lucky not the calf, cos I dont wan muscles growing at my calf. Felt lighter. HEEHEEHAAHAAHOOHOO. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Ok off to mug for bio now. BYEBYE. :)

2nd in a row. What the hell is happening to my Sec 3 life.
I just want my Sec 3 life peace and quiet with my best friends(Sharmaine Yingying Kina Weiting) and with my 304 girls like May Joey Limin Philis Huihui Shien Yingzhen Wanping Noreen (hope i didnt miss out anyone) and spend recess and class times laughing together and my choir buddies like Jaslyn Limhui Charmaine Joanne Jerlene and having fun.
Why is this happening?
HELLO? I'm like stressing here, YOG practices which is FREAKING HELL from 1 in the afternoon until midnight and Choir combine concert and Common test is coming and CIP programmes and I'm spending lesser and lesser time with my best friends and I've yet celebrated Jinnyuan and Henry's birthday and now here u are, adding to my burden.
Life's hard for me. Please please please dont do this. I'm going to break down.
Sec 3 life is tiring. Why cant life be simple? Maybe just a little bit more simpler will help me A LOT.

Some people in class now are like always discriminating their own classmates and they think that it's fun,mostly guys and some girls. I couldnt agree more to what Wanping said abt our class de guys, all BASTARDS. Come on lah, only half a year is gone and people are discriminating ppl from their own class. What do you expect when it comes to when we are graduating? Everyone will turn into enemies? What's wrong with your minds lah. Everyone has flaws okay, and stop, PLS JUST STOP thinking that you are perfect or even better than the person you are discriminating. Criticising other people doesn't make you a even better person. It will just show that you are just much more worse.
Everyone has flaws, why cant we just accept their flaws cos that's just who they are?
Just because you dont like that person, it doesnt give u the rights to criticise that person.
It's just so saddening to see classmates saying bad things abt another classmate when they were once so close.

Btw today Fatty yeo was a total slut bitch etc etc. Charmaine didnt do anything wrong right? Because she was concern abt her studies, that doesnt mean she is not fit to be a leader alright.
Because she was concerned, that makes her a good leader who cares abt wat's best for her. Fatty yeo have absolutely no rights to said that C is not fit to be president of choir. Because she is CCA IN CHARGE, SHE DUA IS IT. Someone ask her go f*ck the wall or sth.

PHEW. I HAD SO MUCH TO RANT TODAY.
NOW I'M FEELING MUCH BETTER.

SGD 23.95

Someone buy this for me:)

I dont mind an early birthday present! :D

I'm sorry. I never meant for this to happen.

Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly.

Hello ppl!
Well,i know i said i will close my blog for a while but....
I still miss blogging.
But I wont blog as much though.
Currently spamming GLEE songs.
DAMN SUPER GOOD I TELL YER.
Season finale came out on FOX.
But I'm still at season 1. WTH.

Going to HILLARY's concert later with C4 ppl.
2moro is C4 OUTING! First year anniversary.
C^4 FTW.
We are all a part of the Crazy Combine Choir Club.
Wow time flew past us so fast!
It was already 1 year since I attended 2009 SYF Presentation.
Rmb on the first practice, I went with minshi and her sch de ppl.
Then, i didnt really get to know the others.
But thanks to charmaine, after the performance, I got to know all the great awes-mazing ppl.
HILLARY + UNCLE HANS. My fav.
Throughout the year, we went to concerts together and met up occasionally.

I'm really grateful that I had great friends who are all so great and pretty (pretty hillary(Y) + pretty uncle hans (?) HAHA. ) and who can all sing SO WELL and we could get along so well and joke around and have fun together. During concerts we will discuss about how the choir did and whether they were good. (Normally very good lah,if not how to have concert?!) and we will always sing Singaporean Medley when we feel like singing together. Ondei ondei~! But normally we will sing until halfway then give up cos we often forget the lyrics or the notes. HAHA. But I still love the song. :)
Last but not least, I LOVE U GUYS AND I ENJOY SINGING WITH U ALL. Happy 1st Year Anniversary! :D

2moro is Youth day and hope everyone enjoys the day!
Byebye :)

Aww,oral is in 4 days. :(

You might say that what if i never met him/her, i wouldn't be here now, suffering in pain. But then you realise, it was the times spent with him/her that you had the most beautiful times in your entire life.

Isn't it just beautiful.
Oh man it's the last day of the holidays and 2moro school's going to reopen.
AWW. SADDDDDDDDED.

Still left 10 more chinese comprehension but I've alr given up on completing all of it.

'The Host'
Wanderer didnt believe Ian that he loved her cos Wanderer knew that she has just a soul.
Wanderer thought Ian was just in love with the body, not the soul.
Then Ian told Wanderer this.

''It's not the face, but the expressions on it.
It's not the voice, but the things you say.
It's not how you look in that body, but the things you do with it.
You are beautiful.''

Oh my god I nearly cried when I read until this part.
Hope 'The Host' the movie would come out soon.
PLS PLS PLS.
FASTER FASTER FASTER.
I'm SO going to watch it when it comes out.

Byebye:)

can i take the chance? should i trust you? can i afford to take the risk?
nothing is for sure.
u said so, and i believed you so.
please never say things you dont mean.

All my favourite peoples (:

OMG this is EPIC.

(left to right) songlin,jason,jinnyuan,martin

songlin and jason are sitting in MID AIR while jinnyuan and martin shuang shuang sit on the chair beside Mr MacDonalds.

HAHA.

(L) minshi!

Went out to celebrate Minshi & Szelim's birthday on thurs!

Check out the photos on facebook :)

It was an absolute fun day! Other then the fact that I sat @ Mac frm 1 to 5. -.-

Anyways, big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MINSHI & SZELIM.

Hope they enjoyed themselves on thurs.

Well i have done my eng compo and i think i did pretty good.

Hahaha i always feel that way but in the end still get B4. -.-

Still left lots of comprehensions. And today is SAT.

2 more days sch is going to reopen le!

OMG.

But i really do miss seeing my girlfriends.

Ok nth to blog le so BYEBYE :)

Came across this on facebook:

Fight for the things you love. Love the things worth fighting for.

but are you worth me fighting for?

Losing.

I'm losing strength. I'm losing the fight. I'm losing myself.

Oh god it's 12 midnight already.
Actually I stayed up to wish szelim HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZELIM! :D

Just finished my book 'The Host' by Stephenie Meyer.
I seriously recommand this book!!!
When I was reaching the end I cried like hell.
Normally I cry silently but today I really cried.
Just cant control the voice and then let it out. It was really loud. It's been a really long time since I heard my own crying cos normally thr was no sound when tears fall.
Scared the wits out of my mom and sis haha.
They thought I had some sad stuff or whatever.
Good Book!! :D

Ok it's really late now and 2moro I'm going to meet up with joeylim haha.
byebye :)

i'll put on my smile:) i'll promise.

Giving In.

You always make me want to give in to you.

Hello! TODAY IS MON.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINSHI!!

hey MINSHI! Happy 15th birthday :) I'm really glad that I know you, you know. Glad that I could be ur best friend :D We have graduated from Jurong pri for 3 years alr and I'm really glad we are still keeping in touch. And plus,we are still good friends! I miss those times where we went home together and going mac together after sch. Now that you and I are so busy, we seldom have time to meet up with each other. But I'm really glad that sometimes we still message each other and you'll always send me chain msg that says abt friendship. I know our friendship will last, cos this is true friendship. :) Although we might not talk as often as we did before, but in our hearts we both know that each other has an important place in our hearts :) Love you lots!

It's mon and the last week of the holidays. D:

The others have went to the Malaysia trip this morning and I'll really miss them! Weiting,sharmaine and yingying. :)

Going out with family today,going to watch Karate Kid :D Heard from the others that it's a great show! Haha cant wait :)

byebye :D

Ignoring.

Ignore. Ignore. Ignore. Forcing myself to ignore. But it hurts.

Hello. Doing my chinese book review now. SIAN DIAO TO THE MAX.
It's going to be minshi's birthday in 2 days' time! :D
But I'll only be celebrating with her on thurs. Very belated.
Anyways, I look forward to seeing my best friend :)
Haven seen her since, I DONT KNOW WHEN!
March holidays? I dont think so.
My 14th bday? She wasnt allow to go out.
Dec holidays? I forgot! D:

SO I REALLY REALLY LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING HER! :DD
Minshi's going to have a concert on Wed and I really wish her concert would be a success and GOOD LUCK to her! Too bad I cant go. ):

Choir was great yesterday. Combine practice with hwachong & st. geb.
After choir practice had a lunch outing with the exco of hwachong and st. geb.
It was, sorta good? Sort of.
Me and liyin left early, while the others were playing games.

Today I'm stuck at home ): Need to chiong homework sia.
Hillary's concert is coming! 4 july :)
Cant wait to see all the C4 ppl.

Byebye :)

you were the first thought that comes to my mind when i woke up this morning. and i hate myself for that.

I won't let you hurt me. More things I know about you, the more I want to know and the more I can't save myself. So I'll block you away from my life. But I couldn't bear. Why.

Best way to explain why are you sad, is a smile. though it might really hurt a lot on the inside.

Hello world! :)
It been quite a while since I properly posted something.
Ever since back from Taiwan, I dont feel like doing anything at all!
Homework still left un-touched.
Tons of things to do disheartens me.
AND PLUS, IT'S ALR THE 3RD WEEK.
SIGH BIG TIME.

Was suppose to have 6A Outing this mon but many ppl cant make it. So it was postponed and I dont know postpone to when exactly. Might as well say it was cancelled.
Tues had maths remedial and more homework. D:
Wed was combined choir rehearsal with hwachong guys. Ice breaking games was, erm, quite a fail thing for my grp. I was like down thr ZI-HIGHING and the 2 hwachong guys were like totally SIAN DIAO.
But the practice was great, it's the best and I put in so much effort into singing! Me and Jaslyn were like straining our voice out. Though very tiring but it's worth it and we enjoyed the whole thing cos we ACTUALLY SOUNDED QUITE GOOD! :D
Dont know how to put it in a more simpler way, so the main thing is, I LOVE NH CHOIR AND I LOVE SINGING.
Sometimes I sing so as to escape from reality that I dont want to face.
Sometimes I sing so as to feel happy.
Sometimes I sing because I love the way I only focus on solely ONE thing.
Sometimes I sing because that's when I dont feel any sadness but only the song.
Mostly, I sing because I want to sing.

Maybe I might have say that I wont join choir again when I go to JC but I cant be sure. Choir is now a part of my life now, not only because it is my CCA, but because it's my passion now. Although it will be more tiring when it comes to JC, but I guess I can handle it.

Suddenly I became so inspiring. HAHA I think I know I learnt from who. GADB!
GADB has been telling me so many inspiring things lor.

Once I told him that I always go out of tune when I sing and he told me,
Not everyone is perfect. You may go out of tune sometimes but definitely not more than you did when you were in sec 1. Cos its these imperfections that keeps you carrying on improving. It like a race. Not going out of tune is the finishing line. If everyone doesnt go out of tune, there wont be a finishing line for you to move towards to.
So inspiring right.


2moro thr's another combine choir practice with hwachong and I'll always rmb the inspiring things GADB told me.
Ok shall go now, post again when I feel like to.
BYEBYE :)

You cant walk on the snow without leaving a trace.

SCREW MY CAMERA BIG TIME.
My memory card formated itself and thr we go, NO MORE PHOTOS LEFT.
I-D-I-O-T.

Today's choir practice was not bad. Quite good.
Went to take the trophy for seniors for 2moro's ROD.

Maybe going to close my blog.
Sian of blogging.
byebye :)

Hello people i'm back:)

When it's not alright, when it's not okay, can you promise to make my heart feel safe?

Hello ppl! Vanessa Hudgens's 'Say ok' keep replaying in my head.
Just came back from C's house for Choir planning.
Wow I'm flying off 2moro! WOO!

Hillary's concert was great, I enjoyed it quite a lot. (except when MGS was singing)
MGS primary de choir was super cute de haha!
CHIJ toa payoh is TOTALLY GREAT TOO.
MGS wasn't so good, but according to H, they shld have been quite good. SHLD HAVE BEEN.
Went for supper after the concert and went home at 10.
OMG damn scary cos I was alone at the bus stop waiting for 157.
CREEPY. Lucky sl was talking, if I would have totally freaked out. We kept talking abt pigs and chickens.HAHA. & he was so noble to sarcrifice his sleeping time. haha.

Sun went to celebrate WEITING'S birthday with her, plus baocai and zhengyu.
Went to BUGIS and me and weiting was SHOPPING while the 2 guys dragged along.
Weiting felt so bad for them and kept telling them sorry while I just continued shopping haha.
Weiting brought a white jacket for 10 bucks and I brought a shirt for 10 bucks too.(see below)
Weiting brought herself a pair of earrings and we both brought bangles!
Super tired de! Zhengyu & baocai brought a pig dustbin for weiting while I made something for weiting but I dunno wat to call it. Hope weiting enjoyed SUNDAY, and BIG BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU IN ADVANCE! :DD

Went home and went out with family to JP, wearing my newly brought shirt :)

bangles not very obvious here, but it's really nice.
i look so stiff here ._.

Super tired de, went home and hit my pillows immediately.

Woke up at 7 today cos mom wans me to go trekking with her -.-

Went to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve and trekked for about 2 hours.

My wound on the back of my foot split open. DAMN PAIN.

Ok not literally split open but er..i dont know how to describe. ANYWAYS, it was painful.

Went home and bath then headed to C's house.

I'M TIRED. WANT TO SLEEP.

Jieling shall go sleep now and get ready to fly off 2moro morning.

*yawns* shit i just rmb i haven pack finish my bag yet. -.-

byebye :)

Dumbdumb owe me lunch and CONGRATS to him for getting staff sergent position which he wanted.