When it's not alright, when it's not okay, can you promise to make my heart feel safe?

Hello ppl! Vanessa Hudgens's 'Say ok' keep replaying in my head.
Just came back from C's house for Choir planning.
Wow I'm flying off 2moro! WOO!

Hillary's concert was great, I enjoyed it quite a lot. (except when MGS was singing)
MGS primary de choir was super cute de haha!
CHIJ toa payoh is TOTALLY GREAT TOO.
MGS wasn't so good, but according to H, they shld have been quite good. SHLD HAVE BEEN.
Went for supper after the concert and went home at 10.
OMG damn scary cos I was alone at the bus stop waiting for 157.
CREEPY. Lucky sl was talking, if I would have totally freaked out. We kept talking abt pigs and chickens.HAHA. & he was so noble to sarcrifice his sleeping time. haha.

Sun went to celebrate WEITING'S birthday with her, plus baocai and zhengyu.
Went to BUGIS and me and weiting was SHOPPING while the 2 guys dragged along.
Weiting felt so bad for them and kept telling them sorry while I just continued shopping haha.
Weiting brought a white jacket for 10 bucks and I brought a shirt for 10 bucks too.(see below)
Weiting brought herself a pair of earrings and we both brought bangles!
Super tired de! Zhengyu & baocai brought a pig dustbin for weiting while I made something for weiting but I dunno wat to call it. Hope weiting enjoyed SUNDAY, and BIG BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU IN ADVANCE! :DD

Went home and went out with family to JP, wearing my newly brought shirt :)

bangles not very obvious here, but it's really nice.
i look so stiff here ._.

Super tired de, went home and hit my pillows immediately.

Woke up at 7 today cos mom wans me to go trekking with her -.-

Went to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve and trekked for about 2 hours.

My wound on the back of my foot split open. DAMN PAIN.

Ok not literally split open but er..i dont know how to describe. ANYWAYS, it was painful.

Went home and bath then headed to C's house.

I'M TIRED. WANT TO SLEEP.

Jieling shall go sleep now and get ready to fly off 2moro morning.

*yawns* shit i just rmb i haven pack finish my bag yet. -.-

byebye :)

Dumbdumb owe me lunch and CONGRATS to him for getting staff sergent position which he wanted.

There's nowhere for me to hide from you.

Hello ppl! Ppl for the taiwan trip for UG & sports just flew off this morning.
My flight is on tues. :)
Cant wait + Cant bear to leave singapore.
Nonetheless, I'll be back on 8 june :) So dont miss me too much!

2moro will be going to celebrate WEITING(pimple face) 's birthday.
Haha, it's gonna be fun :D

Later will be heading to Hillary's concert, first going to meet up with C^4 ppl for dinner then going to Hillary's concert. I hope her concert would be a success :)

6A'2007 JPS will be having outing on 14 june!
Going to Escape theme park if there's no more changes :)
It's been 3 years since 6A met. Apart frm the usual ppl like minshi jinnyuan szelim songlin henry limbin.
WEE~ Cant wait.

Ok shall post next time. Maybe after I come back.
Then it would be a PHOTO BOOMZ.
Haha.
Byebye :D
ireceivedyourmessageandiwaslikejumpingaroundinjoy.

I hurt my leg again.
I hate bleeding wounds!!!!!!
PAIN PAIN.

I need a new ear piece.
Anyone kind enough to buy/donate me one? :)

I HATE INJURIES.

Decided to post a good post. Since I got nothing better to do.
Today was sports carnival!
304 FOUR THE WIN OWN THE SCH.
304-- CHAMPION FOR WATER POLO
304-- CHAMPION FOR BOYS SWIMMING EVENT
304-- CHAMPION FOR GIRLS SWIMMING EVENT
THREE GOLDS STRAIGHT!
Aiya we only got 3 golds nia.
And there's only 3 events nia.
HAHA OMG I SUPER JIAO DE.

Actually I could have swam. But...........
As you noe, my leg haven fully recovered yet.
So, too bad.
Sports carnival was quite fun, allowed us to bond together.
Haha suddenly rmb Cheryl saying that the new principal dai4 suai1 cos ever since she came to our sch, everytime we got school event then will always rain. NO FAIL.
haha, lucky in the end the rain stopped.
Shouted our lungs out, 304! 304! 304!
Haha, I realised I've been loving this class more and more.
Becos of good friends, allow us to bond together.
Realise 304 is different from last year's 205, as 205 is a class made up of different cliques which do not usually bond with each other, but 304 is one big clique of us(girls) haha. Made me felt so belonged.

Went back to sch after the event for prize ceremony & get back report bk.
304 got 3 gold trophies! haha.
Got back report bk, had a shock from ms saw.
I was going to throw something into the dustbin and I wasn't paying attention to ms saw.
Then suddenly she shouted 'MISS TAN!'
Then I was damn shocked and turned around to look at her to see if I did anything wrong or sth.
'HOW MANY TIMES HAVE U BEEN THIRD AR?' ms saw asked me with tat sarcastic face.
WTH. -.-
I answered her that 'dun have ar, cos last time common test u said I was third then after tat u sms-ed me to say that u made a mistake wat.' -.-!!!
Then ms saw suddenly change face. 'OH REALLY AR, HAHA BUT THIS TIME U ARE REALLY THIRD LAH.'
When will ms saw stop scaring people with weak hearts lah. Eg. ME.
hahahaha.
Ok lah got third in class and 60 in level.
Not too bad hmm...

Went out with 205 ppl to vivo to eat and walk walk.
Injured my leg. wthhhhhhhhh.
Went home and fell asleep on the bus and missed my stop. WEE! -.-
Got home and watch tv. TV TV TV.
Ok shall go watch tv again.
byebye :)

Stranger than strangers, i'm SO glad that I don't know you anymore! :)

hello ppl!
I had a great day today. (I almost have great days every single day.)
Been a bit idiotic recently. (Maybe not recently. Cos I'm idiotic.)
OK I'm talking to myself for nothing.
School was so-so today.
Was called out of class to attend a YOG dance session during physics.
Learnt a dance which was................erm. NO COMMENTS.
Managed to had a great time with Edeline Kina and Steph.
Steph was super hyper and jumping around like mad women!
Kina was quite high oso. HAHA.
Edeline said I became more jiao. DID I? AWW...

HAHA. Am I really that jiao?
Obviously not.

After today went to a history talk to pei sharmaine.
A geog student going for a history talk. INTERESTING.
I DONT UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING.
Anyway, halfway through the talk, I was sleeping.
Went home with sharmaine and kina.

2moro is sports carnival! Swimming sia ._.
Going to get back report bk 2moro.
Going to philis's house to do project + play play play.
WEEEEEE~

Waiting. Staring at phone. Waiting. Staring at phone. Continue waiting. Continue staring at phone.

Ok, I'm being lame. LIKE ALWAYS.
byebye :)
Leg recovering fast fast fast.

Waiting for something to happen but I know it isn't going to happen.
I know staring at my phone doesn't help. Sometimes receiving text not from the person you wanted makes you even more frustrated. GRR. How long must I wait exactly?

Remember me for who I am, I'll remember you for who you are.

Hello world. I've been busy busy almost everyday!

Sat went out with SHARMAINE TAN HUI MIN & HOR YINGYING @ VIVO!

GREAT PPL + GREAT PLACE TO HANG OUT = GREAT FUN!

Tons of pictures, but I've yet take from yingying.

Shall post some unglam photos when I get them HAHA.

Sun went out with SZELIM, SONGLIN, JINNYUAN, LIMBIN, HENRY @ VIVO!

Vivo again. I noe.

But then, it's was still mad fun! Have some photos in my phone but I think if I post it Limbin is SO GOING to kill me.

EPIC: Jinnyuan, Limbin & Songlin trying to peel a prawn using chopsticks.

Stupid or wat? HAHA. DAMN FUNNY.

Went back to Jurong East to meet parents while the others went home.

Went to Esplanade to celebrate MOM'S BIRTHDAY.

WEE.

BEFORE I FORGET,

happy 15th birthday MAY ONG!

happy 15th sweet birthday! Though i only know u from this year,but u're really a great friend! hope u enjoy today and be happy! :D

byebye :D

leg still recovering, but not tat pain anymore! :)

Behind every smile, there's always a frown.

Who knows what will happen in the future.

Hello people! Tiring day today.

Got up at 7.15 n i was late for the dunno wat chinese talk.

Was smsing songlin then realise he was actually on the same bus as me, just tat i was on top and he was at the bottom. I thought tat was really funny haha.

Reached sch at 8, seeing may outside of sch then we walked in together.

Headed to Dunman high.

SUPER BIG SCH WITH A SUPER BIG AUDITORIUM N PLUS A SUPER BIG TRACK!!!!

The talk started at 9 and at 10 thr was refreshments.

The talk started again at 11 and ended at 12.

Headed back to sch.

Went to central with May and Jiahui to eat long john silvers.

Realised Jiahui was actually going for tuition at my mom's tuition centre!

Such a coincidence. haha

Said goodbye to May n Jiahui then waited for Sharmaine n Yingying to come.

They finally came and we went to Vivo city!

HAHA we had a really great time.

Yingying was having troubles with my hair. SORRY YINGYING AND THANKS A LOT! :D

We went to Long john to eat, not me, i just accompanied them.

Then went to walk walk around in vivo.

Then something really funny happened. EPIC I SHLD SAY.

HAHA SHARMAINE N YINGYING GET WAT I MEAN.

Cos if i was to explain here then i would need 1h to type finish this post haha.

Went home at 6.30pm, reached home at 8.

Leg still hurting. It hurts with every step I take. Still in the midst of recovering.

When will it recover???

2moro meeting Joey Lim first then meeting Minshi szelim jinnyuan songlin limbin henry martin!

WEEE I'M SO HAPPY :DDDDDD

Joeylim, I'm going to recognise u no matter how much u've changed, ok? The last time I saw u was like p6??? HAHA 2moro will be the first time i see u after p6, i look forward to seeing u!

haha :)

byebye:)

hope my leg faster recover!!!

Don't push my limits. I will break down instead of moving forward.

Hello everyone out thr in this world.
Haha I've a busy day today and I'm tired.
Went out with Charmaine, Limhui, Shaina and Bernard today after school to settle the choir tee.
In the end we found a really good supplier who is willing to sell us the choir tees at only $10!!!
SUPER CHEAP U NOE.
Left at 5.30pm cos need to fetch my sis.
Took 197 frm Queenstown then wanted to go to the 198 bus stop to take bus home.
Then I alighted at NUH cos I tot got 198.
But actually dun have. I WAS DAMN PISS OFF.
THEN TWO DOUBLE DECK 198 WENT PASS ME. I WAS SUPER DUPER PISSED OFFF!!! Silently I scolded the f word. HAHA.
Then I have to take bus to the next stop then can take 198 home.
In the end I was late to fetch my sis.
-.-!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nvm. I am ranting to myself.

Last but not least,
YEWSHEN IS EVIL.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha :)
byebye!

Truth I don't want to know.

Hello world.
Sigh BIG TIME. MYE sucks.
Got back most of the results except for eng n geog.
Chinese deproved. :( B3, 69.3 I HATE DECIMAL POINTS MANNNN.
Chem, SURPRISINGLY, improved! A2 sia.
SS, still the same lah. B3.
Bio, SAD TO SAY I DROPPED! :( B3
Physics, results sucky like shit can. C5.
A maths, A1!
E maths, A1!
WEE.
My L1R5 shld be 15++++. IDIOTTTT.
Overall, I'm still average! :)
Sch's going to end soon. Going to taiwan soon!
Though going to taiwan excites me, but it still let me think tat I dont deserve all of this. Sad.
Cant help it to think this way.
Ok shall go file my physics file n maths file.
Messy messy now.
BYEBYE

Going to Azaac's concert now! Meeting Uncle Hans & Hillary! (L)
Shall post again 2moro or the day after. HAHA.
BYEBYE:D

I'm weird. I just realised I've been really childish before. Cant believe I did all those things. Childish me. Certainly hope that I've grown up and be more mature already. GROW UP,tanjieling.

Sweetness accompanied by sadness. ;(

HELLO PEOPLES!

I'm here again, since I'm waiting for the glue to dry while doing Hillary's present.

This time I shall be smart and put newspaper on my study table, so tat it will not turn COLOURFUL like how it did when I did Limhui's present.

Later going to meet the C^4 peeps then going to head to Hillary's house for her birthday party! WOOOOOOO~ Cant waittttt.

For the first time I dont have homework in the weekend. HMM..Not very used to it BUT I LIKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHA.

Last but not least,

Happy birthday HILLARY!

Hillary! You've been a really great friend and I really appreciate it.

Encouraging me with the note you wrote, helping me to pick myself up. Really a BIG BIG THANK YOU TO YOU!!! Rmb I'll always be ur HAHA partner and I'll always be thr for u!

Friends forever :)

Ok shall continue to do Hillary's present.

BYEBYE :D

Keep your head up high, so that tears wont fall.

Wee HELLO PEOPLE. Wow I've been really enjoying myself these few days.

Listening to JoJo's songs again. Her new songs are out! Apparently it was leaked out. :(

Although it's sad that it was leaked out, but still her songs are damn super GOOD. Excellent I shld say. HAHA.

Well shld say wat I did after the last paper on wed.

Wednesday

After Bio paper, me sharmaine steph edeline chenfeng zhikai justin dennis went to the kbox at clementi. IT WAS FUN. haha everyone was playing their hearts out. Dennis left early then we all sang and sang haha. I think me n chenfeng sang the most. :X HAHA.

The room was a bit small, as compared to the ktv at chevron. Still rmb marketing ppl went to the chevron's ktv to sing! On the day mr chew treated us sakae. WOO! Aww,I miss mr chew.

Thursday

NO SCHOOL DAY! HEEHEEHAAHAA :DD

Watched The Last Song and cried. :( The movie was touching u noe! At the end when miley's father died in the movie and she played the piano. Cried and cried until my eyes went puffy, I think. Walked around iluma and bugis street for like 3 or 4 rounds? Haha. Ate ice cream with waffle, niceeee. Went to find chenfeng sharmaine steph zhikai baocai, who are oso at bugis. Then we went to the arcade at iluma, played ju beat ripples and I was erm.....quite ok! haha :) It was fun!

Played the butterfly game,which we played together the last time we went to iluma arcade. Haha in the end we lost all the coins and we cant catch the butterflies. :(

But we played some jumping jackpot whereby u need to jump skip rope to get tickets. Damn funny, baocai was good and.............violent? He jumped damn hard de haha.

Time spent with 205 ppl is always, NICE AND ENJOYABLE. :DD

Friday

Listening compre! HAHA 45 min nia.

Then went out with 205 ppl, again. Haha but it was fun :)

sharmaine(who left early) edeline kina chenfeng zhikai baocai yeesiang sixiu.

First, I want to thank all of them for waiting me to finish celebrating Limhui's birthday:) They waited for like 3 hours?? Anw, THANKS :)

Second, We went to jp to watch the movie The Losers. WHICH WAS A REALLY GREAT SHOW!!!! DAMN FUNNY, AND SCENES WHICH WE ALL LIKED A LOT.

Got one scene is when the guy went to steal some important stuff and got surrounded by 3 securities. Then he put up his hand like a fake gun then said: ' I M A SUPER ROBOT (or sth like tat i cant really rmb) AND I CAN KILL U WITH THESE GUNS.' *use the hand to point at the 3 securities* Then he said: P-ANG! B-ANG! *and 2 securities fall to the ground* (left one more security) Then he said: PUT DOWN UR GUN BEFORE I STOP UR HEART WITH MY MIND. *then the security lie on the ground*

THEN IT WAS ACTUALLY HIS PARTNER HELPING HIM BY SHOOTING DOWN THE 2 SECURITIES. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA SUPER FUNNY.

That's the most memorable scene.

Watched finish the movie then went to mac to sit around then went home. Kept seeing Limhui in jp haha.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIMHUI!!!!

Yo I hope you grow up ok. HAHA. jkjk.

Hope u like my present cos if u dont i'll break ur neck cos I SPENT HOURS DOIN TAT THING.

MY STUDY TABLE FRM WHITE TURN INTO 'COLOURFUL' U NOE.

Haha ok anyway it's nice knowing u and all the other things I want to say to u is alr in the card i wrote u or in the long message i sent u HAHA.

OK shall go now.

BYEBYE :D

MID YEARS IS FINALLY OVER! sry to those e lit n chinese lit ppl. HAHA.
Dunno what to talk about. Anyways, I M SO HAPPYYYY.
Shall blog when i feel like blogging
BYEBYE :D

Big Bang! The cartoon is so damn cute right. haha :)

Hillary's note for me made me tear.
The words, the phrases, everything she said in that note, describes how i feel exactly. No one could understand unless you experience it yourself. That's when it makes it the most hurting and the most unforgettable.

Firstly I want to thank her for spending time and typing out that note for me even when it's during the mid years and everyone is so busy and hillary is sec 4, even worse. Thanks Hillary, it's comforting to know that someone is worried about you even when they are so busy about other more important stuff and trying their very best to make you feel better. Her note is enough to let me tear when i reached the 2nd para. Not because I'm sad but because I was so touched.

Secondly, Hillary I'm really very grateful that I got to know you. Because of Combined Choir. I'll never ever forget that. My HAHA partner. Always will be.

Next something for C, thanks also, like I said earlier, it's comforting to know someone is worried about you and even when they are so busy with studies and stuff. I'm not saying that the six of us must have a clear line between each other, it's just the disappointment in me with myself. Maybe you might not understand or maybe you do understand cos you have oso been through something like this before, it's not something which is that easy to get over with. Specially when you know you tried your best and still not enough. I'm still the happy me, so dont worry :)

Ok it's 2am now. Shall hit the pillows.
BYEBYE :D

I keep telling myself everything is for the best, but I just can't help it to let tears fall. A slight touch could let the heart break. The higher you pin your hopes, the harder you fall. I fell and hurt myself so badly.

Hello people. I'm here. Well, I've been a little emo-ish these few days.
Okay, maybe not a little, a lot.
Other than because of mid years and all the stress, and..you know. (If you dont know,then i've nothing to say.)
Thanks a lot to Hillary, Uncle Hans, Limhui, Dumbdumb for all those encouraging words. Really helped me a lot. Thanks to Jaslyn n Weiting for making me feel better. Thanks to all who said things to encourage me.(although not many ppl noe but still, thanks)
Putting up a strong front is tough, sometimes I just like to feel sian diao and stone there. Too tired, cos I've been tiring myself out.
Ever thought of because you want to make everyone around you happy and tire yourself out cos you dunwan to disappoint others? I know life cant always be perfect, but what I want is for things not to be as perfect as it possible could be. I try to be the best for everyone, in the end I am very tired. And you cant just give up like that, not possible.
Lots of people puts up a strong front in front of other people, whom I know quite a few of them. In other people's impression, they are the kind of happy-go-lucky type of person but tat's the mask they wear in front of people. When you really get to know the person, you get to know who is that true person under their masks. It's the true person that you know under that mask make the reason why that person is ur best friend. Like dumbdumb. Ok lah dumbdumb might not be my very very best friend but he's an very important friend to me. Quite important.

Ok I've been really emotional these few days.
It's not a fault to be emotional righttt.
Ok byebye shall go and muggggggg.
BYEBYE :D

I would be lying if I say I'm not disappointed. True, I'm disappionted, but not with the end results, but with myself. I can't blame others when I can't get what I want. Not like others owe me right, we must all fight for what we want, only that is fair, I understand. I understand that maybe I'm not cut out for the job. I understand that others has more potential and strengths than me. I understand that I myself have a lot of flaws, so much that even I can name them myself. I understand that seniors is doing what is right and what is best for the choir. I understand, I really do. It's just that I have so much to say but I don't know where or who to spill out to. Scared that I might be a burden to them or something.

Something Ms yin said is craved in my head. ''It's not important which position you have while you are in choir. What's important is the influence you have on the choir after you left.'' So, I'm going to leave an BIG influence on the choir after I leave Nanhua! MUAHAHA.

Lastly, congrats to CHARMAINE, LIMHUI & LIYIN. You all will be great leaders to lead the choir. Words from bottom of my heart. Congrats.

I'm tired. I realised I've been the one making myself so tensed and stress up. Relax dear. I tell myself. Relax.

TAEYANG! :DDDDDDDD HE'S DAMN COOL n the girl in the mv is damn pretty. But the mv is damn sadddddddddddddd. Touching :)