I should just give up & let go before it's too late

sorry for the post eariler on..

just ignore it.

today is friday & don't u think tat time has gone too fast?

after next week then it will be national day n then..

COMMON TEST 2!

-.-

n then,not long after tat,would be END OF YEAR!

then i would b sec 3 le...

it's really surprising to see time passes so fast..

p1,p2,p3,p4,p5,p6

then sec 1,sec 2,sec3

it all seem like just yesterday..

more n more people are getting sick,

first weiting,then amelia,i think the next one would be me..

but i really can't afford to miss sch cos common test is nearing..

today everyone changed place,cos ms poon isn't here

jesslyn changed sit with me she wanted to sit with ziyan & ying zhen they all

i got no choice since amelia n weiting were not here,so it does not matter whr i sit

just felt lonely,tat's all

ziwei n gregory sat beside me,at least they could entertain me..

haha..

first period was PE,slacked cos as usual,mr chan nvr come..

then was 3 periods of HCL,did compo on the ke wen

sian..

during recess stayed in class,the class was damn super quite cos only got 3 ppl

then me n titus playing with the white board marker

then he drew on my face..for the 2nd time!

wth ._.

but nvm,anyway i won't get pimple..

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...

then was physics,did practical in the lab

i realised sharmaine is totally hilarious!

ok..but fione say if u get to noe sharmaine longer then her jokes won't b funny anymore

zzz...

but sharmaine de "diao -_-'' look is totally..

FUNNY! cos i can't stop laughing when i see tat expression of hers..

then was maths n mr ng is totally funny

cos tse yu forgot to tuck in his shirt,so........

SPONGEBOB!!

haha...too bad edeline wasn't here..

but it was totally unglam for tse yu cos he was spongebob-ed until his boxers came out..

._.

unglam!

then was dennis's turn to be spongebob cos he come into the class knowing mr ng is thr,without tucking in his shirt!

haha

when dennis came in,mr ng was like,

'come! dennis! come here!'

then dennis look down to his shirt n,

'oh shit!'

then he went out again to tuck in his shirt.

meanwhile mr ng was like saying.

'u noe,i m not making things diffcult for dennis but he was the one who digged his own grave'

haha..funny..then dennis purposely came in from the back door instead of the front door

hahahaha

then after tat they were saying tat thr was a new virus called H3N2

gregory say is,

H1N1(swine flu)+H5N1(bird flu)=H3N2(then pigs can fly)

haha,then mr ng say melvin is the pig who can fly..

then he corrected the statement by saying,

'no,actually melvin IS the fly'

haha

then was lunch,went down with fione jean n sharmaine

then during lunch had a little small chat with steph..

:X

then we were like slacking all the way for the next 3 eng periods

me,titus,kina,steph,gregory,chenfeng,zhikai,baocai,yeesiang

were playing murderer then dare

played for the whole 1 and a half hours

had great fun,then after sch i immediately rushed home

dunno why,cos i did not want to see anybody..

on the bus,i was crying,i dunno why,but i as glad no one saw it,mayb i was thinking of the conversation with steph earlier on during lunch

don't worry, i'll b fine

i promised myself tat i m going to forget and nvr cry again

i'll just continued to live my life n after 3 months then i will b in another class le

though i noe might not(or most probably) be able to fulfill my promise

but i'll try my best

:)

byebye

(why re u doing this to me,u re my most trusted person,yet u lied to me.

i m not blaming u,but i just wan to know why.it's not fun at all to toy with other people's feelings,

and what's more is i m ur best friend.i don understand why,but i just wan a explanation.

it's not entirely ur fault,but is his's fault too.

causing me to be such pain,such hurt,such sufferings,all thanks to u.

i m trying my best now,

trying to get out of ur attention,

trying to get out of ur way,

trying not to have anything to do with you,

and most importantly,

i m really trying to get out of ur life.)

i need u

everyone needs protection,including me.
everyone needs someone to reassure them that their every decision is right,including me.
everyone needs to grow,including me.
all my dreams are shattered
all because of you
why?
why did you want to give me false hopes?
why?
why am i feeling this way now?
u should have known...
why didn't u tell me?
now,i could only hear the truth from other people's mouth
and this doesn't feels good at all
for you,
i have locked my heart
and i will never open it again for you
never
because u have betrayed my trust
my hopes
my dreams
and myself

THERE IS A REALLY DAMN SUPER BIG PROBLEM WITH THE BLOGGER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE HECK IS THIS LAH?!
zzz...
sorry guys..
wanted to post the pictures took yesterday at the nanyang concert but this stupid blogger doesn't seem to let me!!
-.-
mayb i'll post it sometime later..
weiting's sick,got 1 whole week of MC!!
amelia is oso sick too,so she tomorrow not coming..
*sad*
edeline's not here today too...
recess felt empty without my dear edeline to entertain us!
haha..
got to go
byebye

FINALLY!

the blogger is back to normal..-.-

the weather now is super damn cold

rain heavily outside,mom is giving tuition..

today 6 ppl nvr come sch!

shannon,zhenjun,lionel,kevin,baocai & yee siang

hope all of them will get well soon!

the class felt empty without them..

haha

today had another lesson of ICT!

did something with the photoshop..-.-

which i ALWAYS FAILED TO DO IT RIGHT..

i keep asking weiting,'correct or not huh? next one do wat huh?'

n weiting is sick somemore..she got sore throat n a flu..

sad..these few days everyone is falling sick...

EXCEPT ME! :D

then was maths but we were late for mr ng's class cos ICT had to submit the thing n took a long time..then mr ng was damn super angry..

today continued with drawing triangles..

n blah blah blah...u noe wat..

recess did duty with weiting n amelia

then was chem and i was falling asleep again..

i sometimes wondered how could chemistry ALWAYS NVR FAILED TO MAKE ME SLEEP..

HAHA...

next week got chem test lei!

better study..
then was chinese,LUCKILY MDM FOO NVR COME!

if not we were supposed to write compo..

sian...but we did some chinese exercises which was of the o lvl standard? wth..

then chenfeng came up with damn funny names for all of us..

justin is 'justin tan jiu kong'

i m 'tan ru hua'(WTH??!!)

yingying is 'chi sheet hor'

zhikai is 'ali mama gugu'

chenfeng is'xu chun mei'

then quan yao is 'jiko peh quan yao'

hahahahahaahhahahahahahahaha.................

so funny..

during lunch we played a game which the rules were:

'speak in chinese n not english or watever'

'cannot say 你，我，他'

thr was me,yingying,edeline,chenfeng,gregory,zhikai,zhengyu,titus playing the game at one corner..

and the one who say the 3 words would be beaten by everyone with a newspaper stick!

haha..had fun..but i keep breaking the rules and got beaten..

but i think chenfeng is beaten the most times...haha

then was music,n as usual,

SIAN!

ACC was quite fun,we had to craft our surname onto the 'chop'

u noe,tat kind of 'chop' u see when ppl write finish their calligraphy and had to 'chop' the name below..tat kind

we had to craft them our self!

wth???

but nvm,still had to do it,cos we paid $65 for it!!!

so i totally mess it up cos 'chen' very difficult to write..

zzz..

edeline n tse yu sat beside me and edeline's surname was easy to craft while mine n tse yu's were somehow difficult..

melvin is the worst cos his surname is SIOW.

dunno how many strokes..haha

the whole class was all powdery now..

cos had to smoothen to the surface before we start crafting n now the whole class is powdery..

zzz..

then went to wait for yuxiang(frm 2/2) to go home together..

he was damn slow..

zzz...

then went back home with weiting,titus,yuxiang and zhengyu and one more guy frm 2/2 dunno wat name

reached home around 4pm!

had a great day today..

i m hope everyone stay healthy n dun fall sick!

byebye

thr is a really serious problem with this stupid blogger!
-.-
i'm tired of this blogskin le..
i wan to change...
but i don wan any of the blogskins on blogskins.com cos they re all so....
flowery and colourful and...
i don like it.
i wan something simple..
yet unique...
like min shi's blogskin i think is damn nice..
anyone teach me how to make tat kind of blogskin???
-.-
i feel so thick-skinned...
haha...

today revised a little of geo
but it doesn't even make any difference at all..
-.-
tomorrow's school day again..
one weekend seems to end to fast
common test is in 3 weeks' time!
n i haven started revising any..
zzz....
i realised tat songlin's msn message is
'i m born intelligent....but education ruined me...'
hahaha..
so funny..
zzz...
i very random now cos nothing to do....
nvm..
just end here today
byebye

there is OFFICIALLY REALLY A VERY SERIOUS PROBLEM WITH THIS STUPID BLOGGER
WTH?????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nvm..
just watched Cinderalla 3: A Twist In Time
super damn nice!
even nicer than the original cinderalla
pls don think i m childish cos everyone still has it's CHILDHOOD!
it is even more exciting cos cinderalla's stepsister went to steal the fairygod mother's wand n passed it to the evil stepmother! she casted a spell and time went back just at the time when the stepsisters and the stepmother were preparing for the ball.then after the ball when the 'person' came to cinderalla's house for the girls to try on the dropped glass slipper,evil stepmother casted a spell and the stepsister fitted into the glass slipper!
then the stepsister became the prince's bride and...
go n watch yourself... :P
anyway,in the end the prince and cinderalla got back together..
it is damn super,ok?
so go watch it!
but i noe u won't....
byebye

i choose to believe in fairytales though they may not come true,
but at least fairytales don't lie,
at least i know true love does exist in fairytales.

wth!

i m officially bored to the core today..
thr is a officially very serious problem with blogger..
WTH???
did finish my homework n haven revise my geo yet..
i officially announced tat i m totally addicted to watching dramas..
ahh!!!
ok,just being random here... -.-
just watched finish another episode of 樱野3+1..
not as nice as 放羊的星星,but still ok lah..
nothing more to write...
AND LASTLY,I OFFICIALLY ANNOUNCED THAT IN 3 WEEKS TIME IS COMMON TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DOOMS DAY RIGHT AFTER NATIONAL DAY!
officially announced tat.............................
i m off
byebye

photos are just like freezed memories.

the only thing different is tat it will never fade away.

Trust can take years to build,but only seconds to break.

it's been a long time since i updated my blog..

this week had been a busy week,now i m so glad tat the week is over alr..

got lots of things to say but dunno whr to start from..

i m so confused now,dunno why..

the shy now is pink,so pretty..sometimes i realised tat i can look at the sky outside my window for hours..

i m so confused,so i might not be aware of wat i m typing now,but just bear with it..

all u need to do is listen..

i realised tat i keep on sleeping overhead in the morning..2 days in a week i woke up late..

including today..woke up at 6.20am! haha i chiong all the way but luckily i made it..

thurs had 3 tests in a day

E lit,history n maths test

today had chinese test

maths test was ok,i was the first to hand up!

haha,i dunno whether is it me or not but nvm..

history test i totally..

SUCKED AT IT!

cos the day before i did not actually do any revising

e lit test was ok,just tat the test was a bit tricky..

then thurs de choir had PT!

i was breathless after i ran..i think i haven been exercising these few weeks...

but PT definitely helped me lift my spirits!

and choir practice was nice

learn the cockroach song---again.

but this time i definitely put my whole heart into it.

tat's why i had a great time singing...haha

after choir,i even sang once singaporean medley with charmaine!

i missed tat song SO SO SO MUCH!

tat's the nicest song ever!

i missed the combined choir..

oh yeah,thr's going to be a movie maraton on aug 10,mon!

BUT THE THING IS,

THE NEXT DAY IS COMMON TEST!!!

WTH??!!!

I WAN TO GO SOOO BADLY BUT I CAN'T!

......................................................................

sad :(

whr was i??

k...bck on track..

bused home with weiting n the bus was like damn empty

first time!

today's chinese test was quite ok,just tat i m so angry with myself tat i actually wrote the correct ans but at the last min i go n add one stroke! wth...so angry with myself..

physics had practical today,electricity..maths was ok but we had to draw triangles..

bused home with weiting and reached home at 3.15pm!

very early!

this whole week i have been alone at home all by myself cos mom n dad have been working late till 9+ or 10+ then come home...

through this way i m more free... but i felt so lonely all by myself..

and the thing tat i really feared most is being lonely all alone..

sigh..

got more test next week

geo and physics and maybe chem..

but i m still very relieved tat this week is finally over..

tat's all for today..

i m really tired now

so

byebye

t

girls n boys from 205!

haha..

gonna make this really short

hi!

n

byebye

Happy Birthday Amelia!

yo! hi..i m back!

today is fri, n we celebrated amelia's birthday!

start frm sch first..

first was PE,played badminton..i was officially not gd in badminton..

then was 3 periods of HCL..sian...'harry potter movie' according to gregory..

cos harry potter movie always very long n lenghty..so..HCL is call the harry potter movie..haha

after recess was physics,was quite interesting but sharmaine n zhenjun does seem to understand some parts..then was maths,3 teachers came in!

thr was mr ng,mr liu n a new teacher,ms tan! ms tan was very pretty..haha but zhenjun say she so-so lah..wth?!

after lunch was a short period of assembly..something bout wat H1N1 and blah blah..

then was eng..luckily got assembly if not thr was suppose to b 3 periods of eng! harry potter movie again..haha

after sch went to celebrate amelia's birthday with edeline,lenise,amelia,me,weiting,sharmaine,melvin,dennis,zhenjun,zhikai,kevin n gregory.waited for edeline n friends to complete her meeting with ms poon bout the oral project then took 151 then reach some whr i forgot wat's the name le..

then we walked n walked n walked dunno for how long then we finally stopped at macdonalds..

WTH??? we came all this way just to eat macdonalds?? -.-

then after tat went to some shopping centre or something which was a damn old building n went to walk walk around..then we sat on the staircases n play 终极密码 then the one who lose had to dance in front of some chop which had a glass window...

haha..first is zhenjun n kevin who lose had to do the siam siam thing de action then we all filmed them..haha damn funny..

then was me n gregory who lose! -.- so embarrassing..had to dance in front of the shop too... -.-

then was melvin lose n had to steal a cup frm a dental clinic..haha

then all of us one by one slowly gone le n i took 157 n home sweet home!

now,post the pictures took today...not all of them cos some pictures are with edeline,if u wan to see,go to facebook! these pictures are all i have in my phone..ENJOY! :D

Moments of memories

haha,stupid gregory wearing chenfeng's wig..ugly lei..

sharmaine wearing chenfeng's wig too! haha,not much difference cos sharmaine has longer hair..

melvin! the face of the man in the advertisment was cut off so we went to play with it...haha

gregory with a super weird face lei.. looking down at his stomach..


tat face again...


kevin! haha kevin cannot reach the face so he had to step onto the metal thing supporting the advertisement to put his face up to the hole..


kevin!


kevin & me! kevin look so...blur blur

bad girls n boys sitting on the staircases!

stupid dennis dun wan to smile...

my dear edeline!

birthday girl n best friend!

zhenjun & dennis..why zhenjun open his eyes so BIG...

zhenjun , dennis , melvin!

zhenjun act cool arh...

amelia,kevin,gregory,me,melvin n dennis!

me,gregory,dennis,edeline,kevin,melvin!

arh! child pregnant! haha saw this at the bus stop..guess wat the advertisement is bout?

relieves kids' indigestion! haha so diao.. -.-

tat's all...

later go kope some frm edeline's blog..

byebye

time fly so quickly,without us even realising.

i still remember the first time i met all of you,each and every was such a stranger to me.

we went through many things together,leaving us with those precious memories.

orientation camp,105 class outing,105 class photo...

all of these left us with memories of our youth.

more memories were made frm 205 class chalet,and now,205's class photo.

i never knew a class photo could meant tat much.

in the past,class photo to me was just a photo.

but now,this class photo,meant more.

it meant tat the year is ending,the time we have with one another is shorter,and remindings me of the fact tat we are going to stream to different classes next year and slowly drift apart.

i don't want this to happen,i really don't want.

205,i love you!

i can't believe this,but i am really crying while typing these.

life is full of colours, what colour is your life?

hi! i m here again!

today is thurs,so must wear tie...

reached sch today quite early cos i took the earlier bus

then walked to sch saw kevin n fione n fione's friends

walked with kevin to sch. he still doesn't wan to call me jie jie...

then when i reach sch n went to take the bks, saw a GREEN CATERPILLAR!

i was stunned..n freak out..

then titus,baocai,gregory,steph,yingying,kina n me kept playing with the caterpillar,is was damn gross..we put the caterpillar onto a piece of paper..
then yee siang came and flicked the paper n the caterpillar dropped to the first floor!

haha..

then ms poon came in cos it was PC lesson..

then daniel frm 204 came in to borrow aircon control and he was like so...act cool?

watever,i don like him..then after he left n ms poon said:'MORON.'

haha, gd one..

the topic today is "TEMPTATION"

haha, then ms poon called sharmaine & steph,tse yu & quan yao to write some reasons on the board for

'why does teenagers results into a sexual relationship?'

haha..then some of the reasons re :

-perverted (tse yu)

-curiosity

-desire

-NOTHING BETTER TO DO?!

-drug abuse(huh?)

-drunk(wth??)

-entertainment

-enjoyment

-fun

-hormones

-puberty

and blah blah..

haha,then we were supposed to get into grp for some grp work..

then was physics,it was okay,just a bit confusing..

suddenly is electric current,suddenly is ampere,sudddenly is volt,suddenly is resistance..

so confusing..

still trying to figure out the S.I. units..

then was maths,saw mr liu!

but he like always,he just sit behind n listen

i wish he could oso teach us..

it seems like a long time since he taught us maths..
then was recess,went for recess with edeline,lenise,steph,kina n ate western..

then after recess was assembly so ms poon came in n carried on with the grp work during PC...

then we were supposed to do stone painting for racial harmony..mayb i shld go find some pictures for references..
then was HCL,mdm foo came back..

lesson was as boring as usual but today i tried to keep myself awake by copying all the meanings of the words,to keep me preoccupied..

then was lunch,weiting n amelia went for lunch while i stayed in class with edeline!

we chatted bout somethings n watched the guys played soccer on the balcony outside our classroom..zhenjun was damn pro lor..he kicked the ball down to the 1st floor for 6 times!!!

haha,then he had to keep going down to take the ball up..

then was history n it was quite interesting..haha

after she taught finish chpt 8,we still had bout 15min left..then she told us bout the financial crisis and how her son screwed up her picture with mdm chua's idol!

it was damn funny..this was wat happened..

mdm chua had a idol n it was lee kuan yew! she said her biggest wish was to take a photo with her idol...then...

mdm chua was going out with her family to marina barrage when she saw her idol,LEE KUAN YEW! mdm chua was then holding onto her baby girl n she rushed to her idol n requested a photo taken with him. so he agreed n they took a picture together n mdm chua's son,who is 8 years old,helped to take the photo.

her son said:'mom,are u ready? UNCLE,re u ready?" (haha)

mdm chua smiled as brightly as she could n she was damn happy!!!

then,when lee kuan yew left,mdm chua immediately wanted to see the picture n her son showed it to her.

"WHAT DID YOU DO???!!!"

actually,mdm chua's son actually zoomed up to mdm chua's face n the picture only had her face n not lee kuan yew's face...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD! IT WAS DAMN FUNNY!

mdm chua was damn pissed off n ignored her son for the whole day n even called her son 'fool' when her son came apologising to her...

hahahahahaaha....her son was so damn cute..

hahahaahaha

i can't help to keep laughing...hahaha

then was e lit,as boring as usual cos i don understand at all...

after sch,my oral project grp had to meet ms poon n so we met her...

after the meeting,we stayed back for PW video editing in the comp lab..

went home at around 5pm +,walked to bus stop with baocai n zhikai..

then took 198 n reached home!!

just finishing up my treatment now,still got a lot of homework too..

saturday is amelia's birthday so tomorrow going out to vivo!

tat's all for today..

byebye

i hate watching guys play basketball,i don't like it. because tat would always remind me of him.

Change

nothing much to say today,except tat Hillary (haha partner) is really a gd writer!
the following essay is written by her..
though thr is some sexual content(pls don't b mistaken,the essay is fictional,not true one!),but i think the essay is pretty well written!

Change
Change is something wonderful. It allows the beholder to experience many things in life, whether happy or sad, change is something good. It leads us through the many portals in life as we see the diversity of the world. Change could be something amazing, like how a butterfly grows from young. An ugly little green caterpillar could change into such a beautiful flying creature! Change works miracles in life that humans are unable to imagine; and this is the story of how my life changed for the worse... or is it better...
I walked down the school corridor aimlessly. The bell had just rung and students were flocking in big groups towards the canteen. I had no destination because I was a loner, someone who did not have any friends. Each step I took forward, I could glance at the other students happily chatting amongst each other and the sight ached my heart. I just longed to have a good friend who I could turn to in sorrow, share happiness with and someone to pick me up when I fell; then I would not mind the rest who were gloating at me. As the corridor cleared out, the sound of my footsteps echoed loudly. But no one else was there to sense my loneliness and come along to accompany me. I stepped into the basketball court and sat in the shade of the huge oak tree. Like a parent shielding his child from all the dangers of the world, the oak tree covered me gently with its branches, putting a cloak of comfort on my shoulders. I could trust the tree with all my secrets as I whispered them into the air, breathing in the sweet scent of the freshly-bloomed clovers growing at the edge of the basketball court. Then, something really unexpected happened.
Jason, the most popular boy in school whom all the girls fawned over, walked up to me and seated himself fown comfortably. He plucked the grass and leaned back, in no hurry to tell me what he was doing there. Often, people told me to go away as that was their "meeting place", as if the oak tree was theirs. It belonged to me also, and everyone else in the school! But others just claimed the spot selfishly, chasing me away from my comfort, pushing me back into the reality that I did not want to face. However, Jason closed his eyes, with no apparent attempt to chase me away from my shelter. At least I could still remain there. I shifted myself more to the right, leaving a wider gap between the two of us. It felt awkward sitting next to someone I usually did not even dare to look at.
"It's relaxing here, eh?" Jason suddenly popped a question at me and I stared at him blankly. For the first time in my life, I realized how sharp his features were and how handsome he was. All the curves and lines on his face seemed to fit in perfectly and I could not find a single flaw with his face. He opened his eyes slowly and pushed himself back, at the same time edging nearer towards me. I dropped my head so that it sunk low again. I had not enough confidence to look him straight in the eye. He repeated his question as I did not answer, yet his tone was calm and not impatient. I nodded my head and my ponytail bounced up and down.
"I've been observing you for quite awhile," he said, taking my hand and placing it in his palm. With a quick, swift movement, my hand retreated. I did not like the feeling of warmth he was giving me although I had always longed for it. He shrugged his shoulders curtly and drew something out of his pocket, a tiny ziploc bag, sealed, with a few white pills inside. I remembered seeing that before... At the doctor's probably? Perhaps Jason was sick. Or was it just some sort of vitamins for nutrition. I fixed my gaze upon it and Jason held the packet out to me. He gestured, as if asking me to open the packet and pop a table into my mouth. I felt a pang of confusion. Why was he asking me to take his medicine? Then just at the exact same second, my memory of that packet flashed at me. It was drugs! Something dangerous and harmful, as the teachers had told us. What was Jason doing with this kind of drug? I shook my head vigorously, indicating that I did not want to even go near any of those pills. "Why not? It'll relieve you of all your pain. Just one will do the trick..."
All my unhappy moments flooded my brain as Jason droned on beside me. This object, would it be so miraculous to make me popular? Would I then be accepted amongst all my other classmates? Without any more hesitation, I popped a pill into my mouth. It was just one, why not try and seeif I would really be in heaven after taking the tablet? My conscience no longer stood firm as all my desires washed over it, hitting it hard, blowing it away like how the wind would blow until a tree was uprooted. I smiled at Jason gratefully. He had accepted me. Finally, someone I could talk to.
I was in paradise! The drug made me soar above the clouds and it made me feel as free as a bird. I was no longer an imprisoned, wingless bird endlessly beating at the cage bars to get free, but instead, I lingered with all the rest of the flock. Jason and his group of friends invited me to play basketball with them and I did. This drug had changed me into something I could never have been before. All the other students hanging around me, chatting with me... I would never wish for anything more. Nothing else seemed important in my life now...
The big group trooped into the pub. It was evening and the sun was beginning to doze off as it faded away. I stumbled into Jason's arms and we tell onto the couch, him on top of me. As his lips pressed against mine, I knew this was where I would belong in the future. No one would snatch this blissful life away from me. We had a lot of fun drinking and dancing in the pub. Then my handphone on the sofa rang. It was fairly loud and Jason heard it too. He reached over to it and rejected the call. "Never mind that." I did not want to spoil the fun so I switched it off. I did not want my mother to start nagging at me again. It was so boring to go home, study, or stare at a blank list of messenger contacts. I had so many new friends now that I was certain they would all never desert me! By the time we left the pub, a sheet of darkness covered the rest of the outside world. We all reeked of alcohol and sweat but no one was there to complain. Jason was holding me in his arms and his face was all red. We all were drunk. "Run along home now," he blurted out.
I could not leave behind this night with all the music and laughter! I did not want to step back into my past where no one would even spare a glance towards me! No way would I ever allow that to happen! I slipped my hand around his waist and whined with a puppy-dog look on my face. He grinned from ear to ear. I knew that more interesting stuff would take place as he walked with me towards his sports car. He drove off, the breeze hitting my face. Finally we stopped on a hill. Everywhere, there were just bushes and grass. The place was deserted. Jason fell on top of me and started it.
As my life fell into the darkness of the night around me, I smiled. This probably could be a bad thing, but nobody would ever know we had committed such a crime. From the poor, innocent girl I was; a sudden bright light shined upon me, showing me a way out, but put me also on a path of no return. I had taken it, knowing the consequences, but I could not control my desires and everything that had happened. As the storm finally decided to rest, the black clouds drifted away, and we both had fallen asleep.
Sometimes change could be a good thing, or it may be a bad thing. Some changes are inevitable, like how an egg will hatch into a fluffy yellow chick, but some changes are the ones we choose. I made the decision to change my life the moment I took the drug. But would I ever regret this change in the future? This change had brought me happiness for a night... But I never knew this change would bring about other serious consequences in the future.So, is change good... or bad?
By Hillary :D
byebye

Time passes, people change. Why?
sometimes i think that people can be really fake
they don't meant what they said because their actions has proven it
what has happened?
used to be so true and honest to one another
but now, ur actions does not even match ur words
i'm not saying that u re in absolute wrong
cause i know that the relationship between us has become this way is also partly my fault too
i'm sorry,
but are you?

i realised that these few days i have been going bowling all of a sudden,haha
went bowling on friday
& went bowling yesterday...
i m going to bankrupt soon too..
fri played 3 games n spent $8
yesterday also played 3 games
yesterday got no money so tse yu sponsor me $4 and now i still owe him money,haha
yesterday was damn funny cos after sch, we were supposed to go to chefrnon(dunno how to spell) to bowl but when we reach there, we found out tat there was a inter-pri sch competition going on n the lanes could only be available after 5pm! -.-
so we got on a shuttle bus to jurong mrt station then decided to go back to clementi AGAIN.
wanted to go home but in the end still went with them to bowl
took 197 then reach thr around 4pm!
then played 3 games which was damn fun!
played with tse yu first then he taught me how to bowl properly..haha
he really very pro lei! even pro-er then edeline!
for the 3 games de total points he always above 80 one lei!
then he keep on strike and strike and strike..
then 2nd game played with gregory..he oso quite pro too..haha
then last game played with ziwei and i kept on gutter n gutter n gutter..-.-
cos that lane was CURSED! haha just kidding but the others who played using that lane oso keep on gutter n gutter lei..or is it just a conincidence?
then finished 3 games until 5 pm plus..
then went home with justin on 198
n home sweet home!

nothing much to write bout today
just tat i totally ruin my artwork during A&D,-_-''
then i kept on calling kevin to call me 'jie jie'(sister)
haha dunno why but i think kevin really very cute, haha (pls don't puke)
though kevin is one head shorter than me but he is still older than me..
so he did not wan to call me 'jie jie'...so sad... :(
then during recess, dunno wat happened to kevin then he suddenly nose bleed!
ahh! me n tse yu saw he nose bleed so shock.. :O
then we say: 'quick! quick go wash!!!'
haha...
tat's all for today :D
byebye

hold me tight,and never let me go so i'll never be lost again.

hi! i'm back..

nothing much to say today

except tat tomorrow is the maths test!

topics tested:

-Quadratic equation

-Solving quadratic word problems

-Non-linear equation

tada!

added a lot of things on my blog today

tagboard,music player

and blah blah..

cos nothing better to do so

upgrade my blog!

haha

got lot's of project coming up/still ongoing

1.VJ project

2.oral project

still got wat?

i forgot le...

blah blah..

byebye :D

i m feeling emo now,for no reason.
so just shut up n listen to what i have to say.
recently i have thought of a lot of things but i don't know why,actually.
reality is just like that,sometimes happy,sometimes sad,sometimes,is hurtful.
everyone have to face up to reality,including me.
sometimes i have negative thoughts n i suddenly don't even remember who i am.
what happen to u?
nowadays,u cry so easily and hurt yourself so badly.
where has the cheerful n optimistic u gone to?
i would think tat to myself,asking myself.
i realised that i could cry so easily n so whole-heartedly recently
i dunno why, but sometimes i just stop and realised tat my face is wet,and tears just can't stop flowing.i could cry my whole heart out without knowing why. why? what is the reason tat i can't stop?
i dunno why, but i felt afraid,scared,fear of...what? i have no idea too.
now all that's left of me, is what i pretend to be. so together, but so broken up inside.

i watched finish 放羊的星星 le!
dunno why but i feel so sad when i watched finish it..
i think it is because i really like the show a lot, cos i always get that feeling when i watched finish a drama tat i really liked...just like watching finish Boys over flowers n other korean dramas too!
speaking of korean dramas, i just started watching a korean drama called 'Hello God!'
i think the drama is nice after i looked through it's summary of the whole drama

'Hello God!' is about is 27 years old guy called Ha-ru who had mental disorder and only had a mind of a 7 year old boy. then he met Eun-hye,who had a scent of Ha-ru's lost mother. to win her heart,Ha-ru when for a very high-risk surgery to treat his mental disorder. the surgeon had to put a microchip into Ha-ru's brain which could endanger his life. the surgery was successful but the microchip could anytime press on Ha-ru's brain nerves n die. after the surgery,Ha-ru become very smart and rich too...then unexpected events happen around Ha-ru...
this is a brief summary of the drama..haha i feel as doing a advertisement

have maths test on mon
chinese test in 2 weeks time
and COMMON TEST is after national day!
sad..
so tiring..
byebye

minshi & me!

i'm finally able to upload the pictures..

*happy* :D

had a great day today

haha

not exactly great but at least i live my day with happiness,n tat's enough

had to wear tie today

cos it's thurs -.-

first lesson was PC

the topic is..

HOMOSEXUAL

-.-

wat do u think when u see this word?

i usually think of someone who is attracted to the same gender

which is correct

unlike the boys in my class..sigh..

sometimes i really think tat they re really childish

so we learn bout homosexual,the definition of sissy,gay,tomboy

n watever

n i found out tat it is actually illegal to have homosexual acts in the public.

wth? -_-''

then was physics for 2 periods

first period was conducted in the classroom

while the other 1 was supposed to have practical in the lab

but when we reach the lab,ms lim n mr lin said:

'okay class so this is ur sitting position for physics practical,cos thr is no time now so pls go back to ur classes now.'

i just sat down n then teacher say go back

scam me de -.-

then was maths n mr ng came in

taught bout matrix n then it was recess!

didn't go for recess cos i usually go eat during lunch instead of recess

so stayed in class lor

then assembly time,ms poon came in n taught CEP

learn bout locus of control

to have interbal n external control...wth?

then was chinese

n i was totally sian diao!!!

mdm foo spent exactly 1 hour to introduce the 课文

1 HOUR JUST FOR INTRODUCTION???

i really wonder how is she going to finish the syllables for chinese even before EOY

might as well study myself is even more faster

then was lunch n went to eat with amelia n weiting

i was really glad tat the sec 1s were not thr cos without them,

the canteen is like..

almost quiet??

i like it..:)

if not it would b damn noisy..

then was history but mdm chua never come so we slack the whole 1 hour doing nothing

while me,sharmaine,zhenjun n quan yao were playing hang-men then talked bout ghost stories

hang-men wasn't fun cos zhenjun kept giving us lame questions

like for example:

Clue: A very popular band

_ _-_ _ _ _

guess wat's the ans???

the ans is....

H i-f i v e

WHAT THE HECK??!!

me n sharmaine was nearly going to beat zhenjun up

haha

then we were talking bout ghost stories

which turned into jokes

cos when sharmaine was talking bout the ghost stories,we were all laughing like crazy

oso dunno why,just tot it was funny

haha

then was e lit

we were supposed to split into grps n gregory was in my grp

-.-!

nvm..

then we rushed to get our topics reserved

luckily i got our topic first then zhenjun's grp

hahahaha

tomorrow is the C^4 (crazy combined choir club)'s gathering!

i really look forward to it!

:D

byebye

Kelly Clarkson-Behind These Hazel Eyes

Seems like just yesterday

You were a part of me

I used to stand so tall

I used to be so strong

Your arms around me tight

Everything, it felt so right

Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe

No, I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything

Opened up and let you in

You made me feel alright

For once in my life

Now all that's left of me

Is what I pretend to be

So together, but so broken up inside

'Cause I can't breathe

No, I can't sleepI'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out

For hating you, I blame myself

Seeing you it kills me now

No, I don't cry on the outside

Anymore...

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

watching 放羊的星星 now!
super nice
cos it's the 2nd last episode le!
haven do my maths n SRP yet
sigh
still got zuo ye
wth
got to go
byebye!

hi..
i'm here
today's a really wet day
just like yesterday when we went to weiting's house to do vj project
i got drenched..
just a little bit..
haha cos i was holding on to the basketball then the basketball fell into the rain n i went to get it
so i got drenched
o_0
i m bored
just do finish all my homework
JUST
i realised tat i can't post any photos up to my blog
stupid..
mayb i'll try again later
nothing much to say
only the fact tat i m freezing to death le
cos is super cold
zzz...
byebye

hi! i m back..
after a very tiring week,u see..
sorry tat i did not post for so long cos:

mon-cannot use comp cos mom is at home
tues-SYF choral presentation rehearsal with Stephen Leek for 'White Horses' until 5pm plus,reach home around six n i m very tired
wed-SYF choral presentation full rehearsal at VCH until 6pm plus,reach home around 7.30pm,got lots of homework n need to revise for maths test cos thurs not free cos performance until 10pm
thurs-SYF choral presention ACTUAL DAY! released at around 10pm frm VCH,bus-ed home,reached home around 11.30pm.....
fri-i did on my comp but i was busy watching my drama!

okay,it's quite a tiring week,u see???!!!
i'll start frm mon,if i can rmb...

MON

woke up at usual time,around 6am,i couldn't sleep well cos i was: 1)excited 2)did not get enough sleep..
amelia never come sch on mon cos of LOA? dunno..
bus-ed to sch on 185,reached sch n ENG was the first 3 periods..-.-
luckily ms poon did not talk anything bout eng,she spent ALL the 3 periods talking bout H1N1 n blah blah blah...taught us how to wash ur hands in 7 steps n i was like -_-'''
who does not noe how to wash ur hands,huh?? -_-''
but i really did follow the steps when i washed my hands after tat..it was damn slow..

then was PE,got my height n weigh measured...i m so sad..now even sharmaine is taller than me le..i m the 4th in class le,according to height...i hate my weight cos i put on some weight which is so disgusting...

then was maths,learn the simultanous equation

then physics,the chem teacher ms lim came to teach us again,together with a new teacher,mr lim. heard some facts bout mr lim from ms poon,but ms poon say cannot tell..it's a shocking fact!!!

then e lit,learn bout the oliver twist..so boring

then acc(appreciation of chinese crap,name invented by melvin),all the things we can do is calligraphy..-.-
then gregory talked bout wat happened during the class chalet to tseyou,cos of zhenjun pulled his pants down..haha but i saw nothing,ok???!!! believe it or not is ur problem.
then went home with weiting.. :)


TUES!
AYG OPENING CEREMONY!
first 3 periods is HCL... I WAS BORED TO HELL,OK???
forgot wat i did during hcl,but definitely not sleeping
then was geo,just the same as always...
then was chem,stupid mdm shamima was talking to herself or the whiteboard again..
give us wat stupid chem ws which i don even understand
then was eng,went through the grammar ws
during lunch,the boys played a really stupid game,2 person play scissor paper stone,then the loser would get sqeeuzed by the person behind who is hugging him by the waist
was super damn funny!
then maths,i think we learnt bout matrix or watever
Dennis got SPONGEBOB by mr ng! haha,cos he never tuck in shirt mah..haha
super funny,i was laughing like mad..
then was history but i pon the lesson cos i can leave early for SYF choral presentation rehearsal!
anyway,i hate history,so? dun care...

charmaine n yifeng left class at 1.30pm,but i left at 2pm cos i love class! (like shit..-.-)
then we all 3 took a taxi to CCAB (CCA Branch),thinking tat it's going to talk a long time, but wth???!!! we reached at 2.15pm but the rehearsal was suppose to start at 2.45pm..
minshi n her friends were first to reach,we were 2nd..
then waited while yifeng help me to do the chem ws,haha,i feel so bad..
then was around 3 le then mr stephen leek came. he was an australian! so we practiced 'White Horses' and finally it was over,bus-ed home with min shi n her friends n reached home around 6pm then ate dinner n watched the AYG Opening Ceremony! it was great!(only the part when schs were performing,other parts were super boring)
then showered n slept...

WED

SYF choral presention full rehearsal at VCH!

read chinese newspaper n then was maths
learnt the addition n subtraction of matices then PE
PE was not fun at all but i forgot wat we did during PE
then was history,mdm chua came in n i saw her for the first time
she looks very young despite having 3 children already!
then we did introduction of ourself n spent the 1 hours laughing at each other
then was PW,did dunno wat individual reflection on the vj project
then was eng n went through the grammar ws


then meet up with charmaine n yifeng to have our lunch before going to VCH
i was half way through my rice when mdm yong asked me to go up to music room to take my gown n make up box
so ran up,then ran down..
then trained to city hall n accompanied charmaine to guardian to buy some things..then i saw something which look like specs but the lenses which covered with black plastic with a lot of small tiny holes on it. me n yifeng tried on the spec and WOW!!! i can see very clearly through the smal holes! suddenly rmb fione said to me something bout tat u can see very clearly through a very small hole..
i wanted to buy it,but i dunno the price so mayb i'll buy it some time later..
then went to mcdonalds n had a mcflurry ice cream then walked to VCH

then spent 2 hours doing on the Singaporean Medley with mr zechariah goh,the composer of singaporean medley
then trained home with charimaine n yifeng. we were talking bout how kaisu singaporeans are when they just push n sqeeze into the train..then me n charmaine were like copying how yifeng speaks....very unique...haha
then i was the last to alight frm the train then bused home frm lakeside
reached home bout 7.30pm! so late..ate dinner n showered n revised a little for maths test which is on fri...

THURS!

SYF choral presentation actual day!!!

1st lesson was PC then art
art was boring cos we had to draw wat picture of an elephant,a vase n a rose
WTH???!!!
i drew the same picture as titus n it was...sigh...mine was like shit while titus de is like...heavenly? nvm,it apparently shows tat i have not inherited any drawing genes from my mother...my mother studied art during university,u see...

assembly was cancelled cos of H1N1..haha but we had PC lesson during tat...
then was HCL,mdm fu never come! :D haha
so the trainee teacher came in n call us to read the 课文
so boring..
then was physics,learnt bout electricity n the symbols n blah blah..
then was music but i pon! cos i can leave at 2 for the performance mah..
so sad.....didn't get to see ms yeo.... :P being sacarstic

then went to find charmaine n yifeng who were alr waiting for me..
then took charmaine's mom's car to dover mrt station n trained to city hall
we reached VCH at around 2.50pm when we were suppose to meet at 4pm...we were the first..
then charmaine n i went to change n the zip for the thing to put my gown in was spolit...unlucky...
then did warm ups and rehearsal for 'Singaporean Medley' n 'White Horses'
then did a tech run which we were supposed to walk on stage then come down..
then ate sandwiches (?!) for dinner n did our make up
then i got to know Annabel who helped me to do my make up,thanks!
then at 7.30pm,the concert started n we were the ones to open the concert as well as close the concert...so we sang white horses for the opening n waited for bout 1 hour before we get on stage again to close the concert..
at 8.30 was the interval n charmaine went to find her boyfriend who came to the concert for her! so sweet..haha..so i waited for her n went bck with her to the holding room when we got to noe more ppl!
all of them were so friendly...i will definitely miss them! in fact,i will miss the whole choir!
i feel tat this combined choir is much better than NHchoir...but i still love NHchoir,k? just tat from the atitude n passion tat the combined choir shows,is so different from NHchoir...i would just so miss them...n it feels great singing in a SATB choir! which i never did sing in a SATB choir before...
then at 9pm,mr zechariah goh came in n we rehearsed the song one more time..
then it was our turn to sing!
from the song,i could hear tat we gave our very best to this last song we are singing together n i really enjoyed it very much :D

then mom n dad came to fetch me,n we bused home together with minshi n chuning(minshi's friend) n we had a really funny conversation on the bus home..

we were talking bout late coming in our sch
then chuning said tat she wears goggles when she shower
then i was like: HUH???!!!
i stunned for a while then i started laughing..
chuning said she was just kidding but it was really funny
then i said: wat? u wear goggles when u bath,so u wear sunglasses when u swim?
then everyone laughed...haha

reached home around 11.30pm,n i was super tired
showered very long cos need to get rid of the make up..luckily i did not get spray by miss angela tan with gel for the hair,if not i dunno when i was going to finish washing my hair!
then packed bag n slept at 12.30am
i didn't revise cos i was damn super tired!!!
so i slept..

FRI
took 185 to sch...i even slept while standing up..
cos i was super tired..

had ICT, did some editing stuff
then was hcl, i was so tired tat i slept in class...
haha but teacher never scold me,some more i sit 2nd row..
went for recess with edeline's gang n fione's gang
weiting n amelia dunwan eat so i went with them..
then edeline was like saying: not unfair! teacher biased one..jieling sleep in class oso never get scolded but yingying (who is siting behind me) got scolded for sleeping..
haha i was very lucky,tat's all..
then was geo,learnt bout population
n got geo homework...
CEP next n ms poon came in..
then was e lit then maths
had maths test..i betcha everyone did not finish the test
haha

okay,this is a long post..
post next time
byebye