I shall be strong and not dependent on anyone, anymore.

Hello people. No one's tagging. ):
No one's tagging doesn't means no one's reading. I know.
Went out today with family to suntec. Felt sad on the inside.
Brought a shirt, sky blue. My favourite colour. Didn't manage to cheer me up.
On the way home was chatting with dumbdumb(u noe who,if u really dunno,shows how much u have not been reading my blog) dumbdumb is stupid but he said something which made me feel happy. Dumbdumb is dumb but he's my good friend :)
Got home,bathe.
Suddenly remembers something my mom said to me when she got my phone bill n realise i sms-ed 961 messages. BOOMZ.
She scold me n blah blah u noe.
But importantly, she said something i felt tat she got it right.
She said i was empty so i need lots n lots of friends to make up tat emptyness but u will still feel empty cos those friends can never fill up that space. True, i do feel empty inside. Now i seldom talk to amelia or weiting. Though i still go home with weiting,but things are not the same between us anymore.
Somehow, something has changed without us realising it.
Friends around me now,i don't feel secured.
Not like minshi,i noe nothing has changed between us. She's still my best friend. She still understands me.
Friends around me who i really trust are not many. Just a few. Like sharmaine n weiting n amelia n yingying n some ppl in 205 n some pri sch friends. Who else? No more.
To those other friends,i'm just another person tat u noe her name,no more.
I try to get close but i just can't.
It's tough.
Friends for life?
Easy to say, hard to prove.
Some people just don't belong in your life.