Sometimes small things could determine how much you meant to your friends.

Hello. To speak the truth, I am to tired to smile already.
Supposely going to Charmaine's house today to learn the new songs,but she suddenly can't make it. Shall depend on myself to learn the song.
byebye
Did all my homework because i thought today i was going out. Begged my parents so i could go out. For nothing.
did finish all my homework for nothing. begged my parents for nothing.It's ok. When it's not. It really hurts.
I tell you it's ok when it's not cos i don't want you to worry. But other than saying it's ok,wat else shld i say? Say that it's not ok,i am angry,i am frustrated,i am upset,i am fed up? And after that expect you to feel guilty so i could feel better? I couldn't do such a thing to hurt my friend. But have you ever thought that you are hurting me? You think I will not know where you are going? It's all written in your blog. I don't blame you,but i just felt that it's not worth it. I treat you as a really good friend but now then i realise to you,i am not UR good friend. It's obvious,you know. You say that i did not sms you about my new number,but i could swear that i did. I m not very angry about this, but knowing that you are not the first person who ask me i change phone number is it? it hurts me. it proves only one thing. i am not ur friend as i thought you were mine. first is songlin, then now it's you. i thought songlin is the only person tat's why i was only angry with him. but now,you too. now i am not angry anymore,just feeling upset. m i really not tat worthy?